Khaleesi's Last POV
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"Are you in a hurry?" Arthfael asked, watching me place the paper bag that he gave me on the couch.
"Yes," I said as I turned to face him.
He was smiling. His eyes were roaming around the condo unit that hadn't even changed for the past years. I never changed anything. It's still the same unit where we lived together. The frames, the paintings, the wallpapers, it's all still there. Even the guitar that he left here is still here and placed above my cabinet. The television didn't change. I didn't buy a new one because it still looks new. I rarely watched TV.
Arthfael's eyes stopped on our last anniversary picture. I saw how his smile grew wider, and when he looked at me, his eyes seemed sparked.
"Do you have a meeting?"
Kinagat ko ang labi ko at tumango sa kanya. "My secretary called and said that I had a meeting this morning. I didn't even know I had one or maybe I forgot..."
Arthfael walked towards me, smiling. "Did you already eat breakfast?"
I slowly shake my head. "No. I cooked, but I'm planning to eat breakfast after the meeting. "
He nodded and took the lunch box from my hand. "I'll drive you to work."
I took his offer with caution. His eyes were fixed on me and, waiting for my approval later on, I nodded to him. Hindi ako tumanggi dahil gusto kong maranasang ihatid n'ya ulit. Lalo pa ngayon na may sarili s'yang sasakyan.
Gusto kong maranasan na ipagmaneho n'ya ako sa trabaho. We're okay now, so why would I hesitate to say yes to everything he wanted to do that I wanted too?
Masaya si Arthfael sa pagpayag ko. Kinuha n'ya angnilang gamit ko pero hinayaan na ako lang ang may dala ng pambabaeng bag ko. Napaka-casual lang ng suot n'ya habang ako ay pormal na pormal pero walang kaso.
"Aren't you busy?" I asked him when we were at the elevator. He was just standing beside me. He smiled as if he couldn't remove it anymore from his lips.
He shakes his head. I was startled when his hands found mine. His fingertips brushed on my palm, slowly filling my small hand with his bigger hand. He intertwined our fingers and my heart started reacting to it.
I couldn't take my eyes off of her hand.
I waited for his warm palm to cover mine for years.
Now he's doing it again.
The feeling that is building inside me is getting bigger and bigger. My eyes watered. Nagiging iyakin na yata ako dahil kay Arthfael.
I swallowed hard. A smile slowly forms on my lips.
We're really okay now.
Parang kahapon lang ay iniisip kong pakawalan na s'ya at tanggapin na hindi na maayos 'yung relasyon namin. Nagyon naman ay wala nang ibang laman 'yung isip ko kun'di ang h'wag na ulit s'yang pakawalan dahil nakakatakot palang baka malayo na naman s'ya saakin.
I can't face the same phase of me crying and begging for his presence every night. I don't want to feel incomplete again. I don't want to feel worried and unsecured.
I don't care if I have to spend my day with him talking nonstop to me. I don't care if I can't work properly when we're together because he's clingy. I don't care if everyone around us looks and stares at me and Arthfael just because he's very hyper. I don't mind it all. I'd rather choose a chaotic and noisy day with him rather than a quiet and lonely day alone.
