Your Euphoria

Chapter Sixteen: How it started...How its going

Not proofread and trigger warning ⚠️ mentions of drug abuse and domestic abuse, I apologize for all the mentions and scenes

Campbell's POV

I lay on Maddy's chest as she runs her fingers through my hair to calm me down, I look up at her and she looks at me with a very worried and scared look

"Please don't look at me that way...it makes me feel like your scared of me" I say weakly

"Should I be" She says scared

"No.....be used I'd never become the man my father is and I'd never do anything to hurt you intentionally....I'd do all of those things to someone who hurts the person I love......that's what I was taught to do" I say softly as I remember that night that changed my whole mindset

Flashback to the fight before Mia (Campbells mom) left

I lay in bed holding a pillow tight,y to my head as I wait for my parents argument to be over, suddenly I jump as I feel a hand touch my arm

I move the pillow to see my mother, her eyes are foggy telling me that she's still high

"Campbell baby....you have to let mommy fight her battles.....even if she wishes she could do more...I wish I could stand up for myself" She says, I lean up and grab her hand and hold it

"You can mom....hit him back or we can run away and be happier somewhere away from him" I say desperately but my mother shakes her head at me with a sad smile

"I can't.....I can't fight back but you can Campbell" She says causing me to frown my eyebrows and shake my head no

"I can't mom....It's wrong" I say, my mother grabs my hands and gets closer to me and I notice her eyes go from soft to serious

"Listen to me Campbell...you are way stronger than your father, more than you know and I will not have you letting him do what he did does to me to you ever and I'll be dammed if I don't tell you this so listen up" She says in a serious tone, I just nod for her to continue

"You have that rage built up inside of you from watch me get hit and beaten........I want you to use it, use it to hurt this man every chance he takes to hurt you....unleash it on him if he tries you, do what your mother couldn't do" She says and I nod in agreement

My mother kisses me on my head and tucks me back in before getting up and making her way out into the hallway

End of flashback

"Does Rue know any of this" Maddy says as she faces me on the bed

"No....I don't plan on telling her the real reason I was gone this summer, she only know that my parent divorced over the summer which was true but they had been separated for years already and no one noticed" I say, I look up at Maddy who looks at me with such...sadness

"I'm sorry you went through that Campbell......I don't want you to get hurt with this Mouse guy or your father" She says worriedly, I grab Maddy's hand and look into her eyes

"I'm going to be ok.....I can tell he's focused on my father since my father spoke on this, he only threatened me because he knew it would get under my fathers skin.....but with me being half Jacobs......he's not gonna mess with that" I say

"I'm still stuck on the fact that your Nate's half sister" She says causing me to laugh

"Trust me...I'm stuck on it too" I say, I look back at Maddy who's looking at me with an unreadable expression

"Why are you fucking Kat" She asks and I sigh and pull her close so that she's laying on my chest, she sighs as she gets comfortable and so do I

"I needed a distraction....and Kat was there....I can't stand seeing you and Nate together, makes me sick just thinking of how he got away with what he did you to and that you helped him" I say quietly but loud enough so she can hear

"I told you it's complicated....but it's starting to become clear as to what I've gotten myself into" She says and I kiss the top of her head

"You didn't ask for this....he chose this and I hope he knows he's messed with the wrong people" I say looking at the wall in front of me and Maddy holds me close

"Will you protect me Clyde" Maddy says quietly

"I will....will your protect me Bonnie" I say glancing down at her and seeing that she's looking directly at me

"Of course I fucking will" She say causing me to smile

My Bonnie......I'll protect you with my life

A/n ok well I wanna say this first and for most, Ik I'm doing a bit too much with the Bonnie and Clyde stuff and I don't wanna come off like I condone this type of relationship, Campbell is a bit of an extension of me and my own issues ( minus the abusive father and drug addicted mother) and I wanna be honest about it, and this is euphoria so it is emphasized due to this being her mental struggle and her nature because of her bad childhood so yea

Enjoy:)