Sky.
She's alive! Yes! The stupid doctor makes me leave the room. Ugh. I don't wanna! As I sit in the waiting room, leaning my head on Platz's shoulder, I'm worried and relieved.
"C'mon let's go home. You need to eat. You need rest." Platz says.
"Ugh, I don't want to leave Ben and Soleil here"
"They'll be fine. Get your mind off of it."
I walk with Daniel toward the car. Drew is with Aja and Arrow. I miss my little nugget. I guess we'll have to go see Aja tomorrow. I need sleep.
Soon we get home and I immediately lay down. Ahahhhaa.. Beeedd.
"Hey, Sky, you need to eat"
"Ugggh"
"I brought you pretzels"
I take the pretzels and eat like five then go to bed.
Daniel/Platz
Damn. She's so cute when she sleeps. Ugh. I'm kinda creepy but oh well. I wish she could sleep with her eyes open so I could look at those eyes. The eyes that have seen so much worse than me. Ugh.
I'm not tired. I want to just...I don't knowDrew"slowly drift to sleep.
When I wake up Sky isn't in bed. I hear the keyboard from my office going playing demons. That girl. I walk towards the office. And she's facing the wall. Hmmm. Should I surprise her with something. Nah. I say her name and she jumps.
"Oh um what?" Sky says.
"Soleil and Ben, do you want to go to the hospital after you eat breakfast."
"I'm not hungry!"
"No please. I'll make you bacon"
"Deal."
I hurry up cooking and set it on the table. Sky comes running downstairs and she sits down and eats slowly. About 10 minutes later she gets up and puts all her clothes on and goes to the hospital.
"I miss Drew" I say quietly.
"I just got back from tour and haven't been able to spend anytime with him. I miss him too"
I sigh. Just want to see my nugget.
I walk into the hospital and go to Soleil's room. She looks at me and smiles. She looks so much better than before.
"I'm out tomorrow" she says weakly smiling.
"Oh thank goodness" I say moving my shaky arms around her.
I need to see Drew. Ugghhh.
"Soleil, I'm gonna go get Drew from Aja's. Is that fine with you?"
"Of course"
I run out of the room and go to the waiting room and see Daniel sitting there.
"C'mon!"
"Where are we going?"
"I need my nugget!"
Daniel smiles at me and runs out the door with me. I can't imagine how it feels to be him. Daniel drives as fast as he can legally. We soon arrive at Aja's and she opens the door before we make it to the door and Drew comes running out.
"Momma! Daddy!" He yells.
"Drew!" Daniel yells and embraces him.
I smile. This is so cute. I miss this.
Daniel.
Oh my. I missed Drew so fucking much. Ah. He looks like he's missed me. He won't let me go. Haha. I love this moment.
Soon, we go home. Next time we see Soleil and Ben they'll be getting out of the hospital. Drew lays down with Sky and I and soon, we all fall asleep.
I wake up first. Drew didn't wake up in the middle of the night! Yes! I'm honestly so thankful to have my favorite people with me. Ah. I guess I'll make breakfast. Home fries and bacon. I need to go to my moms later today, I hope Sky is okay with that.
I hear Sky walk down the stairs. She looks at me and groans. Every morning she's always grumpy. It's cute though. I don't mind. I walk over to her and hand her a plate of bacon and homefries. She smiles at me and reaches her arms out trying to hug me. I grab her and kiss her forehead.
"Should I wake up Drew so he can eat?" I ask.
"Nah, let the kid sleep, we have a microwave" Sky says quietly.
I smile at her, get myself a plate of food and sit next to her. Oh my gosh, I love this girl.
Ben.
Soleil's embrace is the only thing that feels real right now. I still can't believe I did that. The way her eyes are full of fear whenever she's in a car. I caused that. I did that. It's all my fault. Fuck you Ben. Fuck you. She says it's alright. I know better; it's not.
Ugh. The way she looks at me when she kisses me and when I kiss her. I know that face like the back of my hand. The smile she gets, the crease in her forehead. So damn cute. The way she calms down when I kiss her before a show. Everything about her.
"Hey, Ben come eat" Soleil says handing out a plate full of food.
"You don't have to tell me twice"
I walk over to get my food. I do exactly what I've been waiting for. Kiss her. Kiss the most flawless person in the world. Perfection.
I, don't know what I am waiting for. Fuck you Ben. You suck. America don't cry. Give me strength.
"Hey, do you want to do something today?" Soleil asks.
"I have to go to the studio today, sorry." I say.
Damn it! After about two hours, I have to leave to go to the studio. Dan picks me up and we head to the studio.
"So how's it like? Being out of the hospital?" Dan asks.
"Don't want to talk about it. Sorry." I say.
"Nah, dude, it's fine."
"Hows Aja and Arrow been?" I ask.
"Good, Arrow is really missing me though"
"Good to have people that care so much though."
Dan sighs, "yeah"
We soon arrive at the studio. Sky and Platz are sitting out at the front door laughing.
"What are you laughing about?" Dan asks.
"Drew this morning woke up and he was just the funniest little thing" Platz says.
Kids. I don't know how Platz, Dan, and Wayne can do it. I really don't. I'm the only one in the band that's not married and doesn't have kids. C'mon Ben. I mean, I'd love kids but I can't do it. I couldn't be away from TWO people I love. I have a hard enough time with one.
Studio was the same as every other day. Pretty boring; luckily, everyone brightens up the mood. Platz, slipped on a banana peel today; Mario kart style. Haha. That was a 'barrel' of laughs.
I come home and of course my favorite part of the day comes. Soleil running into my arms.
