You are feeling bad, today is again.. a day to die. Your anxiety is really high today. You don't know why but everything on your body hurts. You were on the Sofa, trying to sleep but you can't. Your mind was full with anxiety. You closed your eyes, hope you can fall asleep soon but no. It's been 2 hours since you closed your eyes but still are fully awake. You have the feeling that something is tightening your throat, you breathe and breathe but the feeling of not getting enough air makes your anxiety even higher. The pain of stitches in your rib cage, the hot flashes that run through your body while you're freezing. You are okay.. but also.. not okay.
Anxiety has the horrible attacks ever. The feeling about to die.. it is so real, but also.. not real. You are not dying and the pain you feel, is not real. It's just your psyche, .. your psyche who want's to make you even more afraid of something. Your fear has the lead but that's the problem. You know it but you are too weak to fight for your happiness. It was already 3am in the middle of the night and you can't hold it anymore as your heart begin to race and you can't breathe. You grabbed your phone and called Seungmin, your friend. He is always here for you, always. You were afraid what will happen if he don't pick up the phone, what should you do then...
But you can rely on Seungmin. He is always there ,,Hello?... Y/n?" he said in a tired voice. You had tears in your eyes. Tears.. 50% tears because of your anxiety and you can't do it anymore and 50% tears.. of relief that he picked up the call. With a tearful voice you tell him what's going on ,,Seungmin.. i can't do this anymore. My anxiety is so horrible today.. what if i die?? Please i can't do this anymore.. please i think i die. i can't breathe.. my heart is beating so fast and my head hurts.. my throat.. everything" you cried. Seungmin cleared his throat and realized what's going on. He tried to calm you down ,,Y/n, i am on my way okay? Give me 15 minutes.. you can stay on the phone and talk to me okay, but i am on my way, everything will be fine, i am on my way" he said worried.
He was faster than he said. He was there after 3 minutes, luckily his older Sister was awake and drove him through your house. You opened the door and you both get in your room and closed the door. You still had tears in your eyes and cried like a river until Seungmin hugged you and comforted you ,,Y/n, everything is okay, i am here, i am there for you, please.. everything is fine" you hugged each other for a while and then he leaned back. He talked to you and you carefully listen to everything he said ,,So Y/n, listen, i know you are feeling really bad right now but you have to calm down. So breathe in through your nose... deeply. hold for a second and then breathe out through your mouth slowly, press your lips together that only a small gap is there. Breathe in, hold, breathe out very loooong... over 5 seconds okay? again.."
Breathe in....
Hold it...
Breathe out....
again.....
You feel your heartbeat starting to be normal and you get enough fresh air into your lungs. You felt a bit dizzy and weak but it really helped. Seungmin hold your hands and said ,,Y/n, everything is fine. Focus on your positivity. What do you need now to be happy?" ,,A hug... a hug that never ends..." you sobbed. Seungmin hugged you deep and said ,,I am here and i don't wanna stop hugging you for the rest of my life" a smile appeared on your face. You two cuddled in the bed and Seungmin tried his best to calm you more down ,,Y/n.. even if i am not here to hug you.. i'll bring you a plushie and you can hug it everytime when you need a hug. You will feel better with the feeling of a hug even if it's me or a plushie" he pulled you closer.
You nodded ,,Thank you Seungmin.. you are the best friend in the whole world.." ,,I am doing my best to make you happy. But if you have another anxiety attack you have to call me immediately. Also.. you need to have a daily routine. Drink enough.. take your Vitamins.. did you know when you don't have enough Vitamins like Vitamin D you can be depressed. Also if you don't drink enough and have too much stress. You need fresh air, go out for a walk and oh, it would be a great idea to write a diary. Not about the 'what did i do today' more like.. 'Today i am feeling... ' talk about your feelings and in the end, everything will be fine! Also Lavender is a good mood saver when you feel anxious" ,,Seungmin.. i don't know how i can thank you.. you are literally the best human in this whole world" you said and hugged him closer.
Best friends are always there for each other and hold you when you fall. Even if they're miles away, they're here for you, like i am.
