Truth - Lashton

Chapter 13

Luke's POV

Today was already bad as I fell asleep at a wrong time last night and woke up to my mum scolding me for missing the bus and making her late.

On the bright side, I managed to skip breakfast. Due to the absolute sinking guilt I had, I decided it'd be good for me to skip lunch and dinner.

I hated doing this, as it broke my precise meal times but I had to! I needed to have some sort of interal pain release.

I walked into class, not horribly late. Mr. Irwin gave me a half hearted smile as I took my seat beside Michael.

"You feelin better today, Lu?"

I was caught off guard by Michael's nickname. I just nodded and set up my supplies.

"I thought you just straight up died!"

I shook my head, giggling.

"I'm fine, Mikey."

"You better eat breakfast when it arrives, mate."

I kept my eyes right on my book so he didn't see my panic.

Right on cue, breakfast arrived. That's when it all crashed onto me. I hated living this way, I just kept telling myself that I was happy and in control but I'm just not happy. Breakfast looked amazing, it was chicken biscuits and as much as I so desperately wanted one, I couldn't. I just couldn't do it.

Michael came back over after grabbing his breakfast and put some food on my desk.

"I think you eat healthy which schools don't do much of but they had grain bars and juice which isn't bad for you so I brought you 2 bars and an orange juice."

My heart practically melted but broke at the same time. I was healthy, that's all.

I checked the bars and the juice, they were fine so I wrote the calories in my notebook before eating.

I'd make sure to go on run after school.

I looked at Michael as I took a bite. He was smiling slightly and his eyes were glimmering.

"Is it good?"

I nodded, quite enjoying the strawberry flavor of the bar.

"I think there's oats in the bread coating. It's really nice."

I spoke, my mouth a bit full from the bite I took. He laughed at how I sounded.

"Yeah. I love that brand of bars! Have you tried ones with a yogurt coating?"

I nodded happily, the yogurt ones were my favorite.

"They are awesome!"

Michael was nothing but smiles when I finished the food.

The guilt set it much faster than I was prepared for. I stared at the empty wrappers as my mind raced.

I matched the pace of my mind as I ran out of the class to the bathroom.

I couldn't do it. I can't do it. I wouldn't do it.