boyfriend {k.c + m.p}

chapter 35

YALL REALLY THOUGHT ID LEAVE ON A GOOD ASS CLIFF HANGER???

guess who's back baby 💕
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"kairi!"
kairi whipped his head to the light, confused until he felt the biggest push he ever felt in his life; he kept his eyes closed for awhile...the adrenaline made him hear nothing but loud ringing.

his eyes fluttered a few minutes later, he felt puffs of air on his face, he finally opened his eyes and was faced with him.

"mattia?"

mattia was on top of him, eyes bulging out of his skull as he was waiting for kairi to open his eyes.

"are you okay? you almost got hit..."

there was silence, kairi looked around for the first time and saw the position he was in. mattia was on top of him, kairis arms were around his figure, grass all around him and he felt his back in pain.

"i guess i'm fine, i don't know. my back hurts though." kairi responds, slowly taking his arms off of mattia with a slight tint of pink on his cheeks.

mattia finally gets up and takes his hand to pull kairi up.

they stood there staring at the patch of grass for awhile. words flooding around each of their minds. they haven't talked in days, last time they talked was when kairi really needed him.

"how much did you hear?" mattia whispered, kicking whatever rock was on the ground.

kairi blinked a few times to remember-

oh.

kairi was supposed to be mad,
crying even.
punching mattia, too. maybe a slap, a kick. everything.

he wanted to hurt him so fucking bad,
but he couldn't.

"more than enough." kairi replies, looking up at the tall boy.

mattia sighed, "listen.." he started to stutter, putting his hands on his head, trying to rattle out some words to speak out.

"i need you to understand that.. i am in love with you."

kairi looks at mattia, holding the stare to see if he's actually telling the truth.

he was, and that scared kairi.

"mattia."

"n-no just please! just listen, please..." mattia begged, his eyes glossy still from crying a few hours before.

"kairi i've been in love with you for months, years even. i want you to be in love with me too. i want to travel the world with you..hell, even get those fucking yellow flowers for you!"

"sunflowers?" kairi chuckled.

"y-yes those!" mattia yells, arms flailing, "yes those, kai. i'm trying so fucking bad to change for you, i am. alejandro was over to smarten me up. i need you to understand i would never hurt you the way i hurt myself."

kairis eyes widen, for me?

"you cant put that on me, matti. you have to change for yourself." kairi stated. mattia was stunned at that his reply.

"what?"

kairi looks to the side, then back at him.
"what?"

"i'm not putting anything on you. i am changing for me and i am doing it for you. because you have helped me grow as a person. you think," mattia starts to choke up, "you think my own fucking dad would take care of me the way you took care of me when i was on the floor that one day?"

kairis eyes start to prickle with tears, he bites his lip to hold back any sobs.

"stop."

"no, i'm not." mattia scoffs.

"you have to."

"why do i have to?"

kairi snapped.
"because this was not supposed to fucking happen mattia! all these feelings, we're all young..do you honestly think there's an us in the future? you never fucking know where life will take us even tomorrow!" kairi screams, his tears finally crawling down his face.

he continues, "you...you put this whole trance on me, i tried so-i tried so fucking hard not to fall in love with you! i'm with a women i don't even like, if anything, i'm with her to get over you and take care of this void i have..." kairi sniffles, wiping his face with his sleeve.

"it's not working, im still here. waiting for you to change."

kairi falls to his knees and starts to sob even louder, harder than he ever has.

mattia just stood there, a tear starting to fall down his cheek; landed onto his own shirt.
he crouched down and hugged kairi.
the only thing that they both could hear was kairis own sob along with the drizzling rain.

"i'm sorry." mattia whispered into kairis neck, lightly kissing it.

kairi took his hands and wrapped it around mattias neck, sobbing into his shirt.
he held onto him so tightly and mattia returned with the same tightness.
kairis sobs were so loud that anyone around would think somebody died.

well, kairis promise to himself died.

this wasn't meant to happen, kairi was supposed to move on and be with emily, or some other girl. he wasn't supposed to fall in love with his best friend.

kairi was supposed to have mattia as his best man at his wedding, not his awaiting husband at the alter, with their hands intertwining while the priest went on about them being together living with peace and happiness.

"i decided to wait for you, matti. and i'm still waiting. but i do want to be with you." kairi whispers back, sniffling still holding onto to mattia.

a few moments later, kairis sob died down, his arms not feeling so tense but he still had a hold onto mattia.
mattia let go a bit to see kairi sleeping, he grinned a little. he's still the same even with the tears.

mattia picked him up while having him still clinging onto his shirt, and walked back into his own house.

he dropped kairi gently onto his bed and putting his covers on him, mattia went onto the other side and tucked himself into bed.

kairi sleepily moved onto mattias side, holding his arm.

mattia smiled to himself.

this was meant to happen,
i don't care what anybody says.

i am in love with kairi.
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hello beautifuls, sadly this book will be coming to end soon. i'm shooting for at least three more chapters. but we'll never know, there could be more!

i missed you guys, so much. i love you all.
chapter 36 coming up soon💕 (it won't take as the last chapter i promise )