boyfriend {k.c + m.p}

chapter 24

you guys deserved this *kithes*

*2 weeks later...*

after the night with the boys, kairi & mattia walked home together from alejandros house, not really having a conversation. their silence was enough. kairi heard him kick rocks as he walked, trying to fill in some sounds so it won't be as awkward.

kairi thought of what to say for a start since the walk is at least 20 minutes.

how was your day? fuck obviously i was with him
how is home? he wouldn't wanna talk about tha-
"i know you're thinking of a conversation starter, kai." mattia chuckles, leaving kairi with a blush on his face.

"i-i don't know what to say cause i don't wanna make you sad or uncomfortable." which was true, cause mattias mood could change in an instant. right now, he was content.

mattia scoffed, "just say it."

"i just wanna ask how home is.." kairi mumbled.
mattia understood, he really didn't want to say it. he didn't want him to ask either, but he has a right to know.

mattia clicked his tongue and bit his lip, "i-uh, not good. my dad is..." giving kairi a pointed look.

"oh god..again?" kairi whispered, he knew. it wasn't the first him mattias dad was in prison. but this time they both knew he was done.

he nodded, "yeah uh, but hey it's okay. things have to get worse before they get better." kicking another rock.

kairi agreed with a nod, silence crawling in between them. they both sensed tension and it was obvious mattia had something on his mind that kairi cant get out.

"mattia?"

"hm?"

"you don't have to answer but..w-why do you want to change?"

kairi knew he wasn't supposed to ask and let things roll but it was really eating him up, he wasn't that special. but in mattias mind he was.

mattia stopped in his tracks, kairi following.

"i-uh...realized i wasn't a good person."

"you were fine just the way you w-"

"no the fuck i was not! i literally fought with all of you every single day, i hated alvaro and robert for some reason. i was neck & neck with alejandro in class; and i bickered with roshaun over stupid garbage, and you..." he paused, turning to the small fragile boy.

"i cant hurt you anymore."

kairi bit his lip to think of an answer to say.
"mattia you don't need to change yourself completely! i miss the old you. i missed the way you were bicker at us, we don't even know who you are anymore. the boys are just as worried as me...please mattia. why?"

mattia didn't answer for a moment, clearly angry at the way kairi used his words. you can tell his jaw was clenching in the moonlight.

they both stared at eachother, the butterflies in their tummies waking up.

"fuck it."

"fuck wha-"

mattia cupped his hands on kairis small face and smashed his lips on them, it felt like there was fireworks in the air.

kairi tasted like strawberries and cream, mattia instantly smiled into the kiss at the sight of them making out in a middle of a sidewalk. at 11 pm.

mattia let go first, some spit connecting their mouths and they both wiped it off.

"that is why, kairi. that's fucking why. do you understand now?"

he nodded, he didn't.

"see you around." mattia says, conveniently infront of the boys house. kairi stood there and watched him go in.

he bolted home and ran to his bed.

he plopped on his bed, his hands rubbing his face, confused on that whole situation.

what the fuck just happened?
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hey loves! this was sort of a filler since i've been going through some work and shit. i'm sorry my updates have been slow. i've been trying to work as hard as i can!!

25 will be a doosy though so be warned :) it'll make sense:))
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