boyfriend {k.c + m.p}

chapter 34

guess who's back bitches
grab the tissues
look at the parallels.

a week later.

emily started to undress, cradling kairi. she bent down and started to make out with him, her hair fell on kairis bare chest; tickling him in the process. the brown haired girl tried to go down on him and she could tell he wasn't into it.

"why are you being such a turn off right now?" emily asks, still straddling the boy.

"i'm tired, shitty day." kairi replies softly, shrugging a little bit. emily rolled her eyes and started to get off of him and get dressed. her phone dinged and she walks over with her shorts in her hand, smirks and rushes to put them on.

"hey, uh. i gotta go, dad needs me to- babysit." emily lies, she kisses her boyfriend on the cheek and shuts the door. doesn't even give a "goodbye" or a "love you!"

not that kairi ever really gave a shit.

ever since he had his moment with mattia the other night he's been thinking about it everyday, making him frustrated.

and that was a week ago.

they haven't spoken since.

it was a common occurrence among the group to ghost each other for awhile and then hang out just like if nothing happened.

but this time was different, something felt wrong in kairis mind. him and emily were going good, but there was some days he felt off; out of place.

kairi thought to himself, why am i hiding? why am i with somebody that i'm not happy with? isnt life about spending it with people who make you happy? then he soon came to realize that he needs to wait for mattia.

but mattia is at fault too. he's been saying he needs to change but does all of this shit behind close doors; makes him feel unwanted. he rests his hands behind his head and let out a sad sigh. this whole situation was happening for way too long, there's an end for everything.

he really did not want to wait, but there was a part of him that wanted to stay, needed to stay. he didn't deserve to wait.

he didn't deserve the lust mattia had in his eyes, he deserve so much fucking better. it felt like mattia only wanted to do sexual things; made him feel even more insecure.

what if he's like this for a reason?
what if it's a fetish?
what if he's just trying to live his fantasy?
what if?

what if?

what if?

these thoughts got to kairi. his chest started to rise in a faster pace as he felt his warm tears fill his water line of his eyes. his hands flew to his face and started to cry.

what has he done?
why did he go through with dating emily?
where did he go wrong? where did mattia go wrong?
when did kairi become the one to break hearts?
how did it all go south?
who is wrong here?

who?
what?
where?
when?
why?
how?

he never felt so confused, so sad, so angry.
he doesn't think he could do this anymore.

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"what the fuck is wrong with you?" alejandro asked, pointing directly at the man infront of him.