Vagary Demeanor (T.R.A.V.E.L SERIES #4)

Chapter 38

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"Shiarre, I already have a problem with your Mom, pati ba naman ikaw."

Napapikit ako ng mariin dahil sa sinabi nito. But then later on, I heard him sigh.

"Let's talk about this in my office tomorrow." He ended the call after that.

Ito ang tamang desisyon diba? I have to set him free. Ayokong makulong siya sa kasal na ito, knowing him, he really don't want to follow his parents. Pano kung ginagawa at sinasabi niya lang ito ngayon dahil he has no choice?

I don't want him to be that. I want him to have a choice.

Ayaw ko siyang ikulong sa desisyon ng parents niya. I just hope, after this, he'll go back to what he was before. I know he's an heir pero alam niya na iyon simula pa noon but it didn't stop him from doing the things he likes and wants.

So he better do it again and not do things just because his parents told him so.

Ganon na nga ang ginagawa ko, pati ba naman ang lalaking minamahal ko, ganon rin? I can't let it.

Ayaw ko.

And I also don't want to be selfish. I was selfish once with him and now, ayaw ko na. Noon, ginusto kong maramdaman ang pagmamahal niya because I know for sure I can escape after, even if it means hurting him, I still did.

This time, I can't, I shouldn't. This is for a lifetime, marriage is a joke to me already but because of him, I'm taking this seriously. Kaya ayaw kong matali siya sakin because I know for sure, he deserves better.

And I can't be that better, after everything I did? Ang kapal ko naman.

Napailing iling ako bago pumasok na sa loob. Nakita ko itong nakaupo sa kama niya, he was just staring at the door, I guess waiting for it to open.

Nang makitang pumasok na ako ay pumasok itong banyo.

I lay down on the bed and stared at the ceiling. Nasa ganon akong posisyon nang tumabi siya sakin at niyakap ako sa bewang.

"Are you okay?" He whispered in my ear.

"Yeah,"

I turned around and hugged him. This is the last night with him, I wanna treasure this moment because after this, wala na talaga. I'm finally letting him go, he can't be with me, he doesn't deserve a marriage happening just because of a business.

He hugged me tighter, ang isa niyang kamay ay ginawa niyang unan ko, ang daliri ay hinahaplos ang buhok ko.

"Sleep already, I know you're tired."

"I'm not." I answered. I heard him sigh. "Why were you mad at me?"

Isiniksik niya ako sa kanya kaya napabusangot ako at kumalas. I looked up at him. He looked down at me too.

"Bakit?"

"I'm not mad."

"Maniwala." Iningusan ko ito.

He chuckled and kissed the tip of my nose. Nanlaki ang mata ko kaya inulit niya iyon.

"Nagtatampo ako." Napataas ang kilay ko sa sinabi niya. "I'm not your friend, Emiliana, I'm your fiancé!"

Napa kurap kurap ako sa sinabi nito. Sinabi ko ba iyon nung lasing ako? Kanino?!

My brows are furrowed as I try to remember it. Siya ay pinagmamasdan lang ako. Nanlaki ang mata ko ng maalala ang tinutukoy niya.

Right! I told my friends that he's my friend!

I sighed, "Because they don't know I'm in an arranged marriage with Rehan. If I tell them you're my fiancé, it'll confuse them. It's such a weird environment to confess."