How to be an Extra?
| Chapter 28 | Extra Struggle
Mezzi Claudine Stockholme
"It was an accident." For the nth time, I reminded myself.
Nakatalikod pa rin ako mula sa kanya. I am embarassed that I don't know how to face him. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang ire-react ko. Am I allowed to go berserk?
That is my first kiss—real first kiss... on the lips!
"Hey..." I heard him. "Uhmm... that was an accident... I didn't mean it."
"It was an accident. He didn't mean it." I kept on whispering—reminding myself once more.
But, I feel something wrong. Imbes na mapanatag at makahinga ng maluwag—because his confirmation is supposed to be an affirmation that I should brush it off—mas lalo kong gustong magwala. Gusto ko syang singhalan ngayon pero hindi ko magawa. I am sane to think that it is an accident... and the fact the he saves me from that fast-moving thing has crushed the thought to complain.
"Let forget about it. Kailangan na nating kumilos kung hindi... wala na tayong aabutang mga itlog."
Pansamantala akong hindi makagalaw sa 'king kinatatayuan dahil sa sinabi nya.
Forget? How can he say such word like nothing happens? Pero, ito rin ang gusto ko—ang kalimutan ang nangyari at ituring na isang masamang panaginip. The analogy—it is a nightmare that haunts me.
"Yes... let's forget about it." Natawa ako ng pagak.
Since I can't complain about the matter, I agree even there is that strange opposing feeling.
Nagsimula syang maglakad na sinundan ko. Katahimikan ang namayani sa pagitan namin. Awkwardness is enveloping the atmosphere.
I distance myself to him. Pilit ko pa rin pinapangaralan at pinapaaalahanan ang sarili na lumayo sa lalaking 'to.
"Forget... be it." I muttered as I hissed.
Naiinis ako. Kahit gusto kong kalimutan ang mga nangyari... he should still apologize, right? As much as I want to act as if nothing really happens, it isn't easy as pie—that is my first and it is a big deal!
Isa pa, I am hating the thought that he would always rescue me. I am a woman but I am not fragile as it is. I can deal with my own problems. The point is... he should have let me do my thing. Kahit alam kong pinagbilinan sya nina Duke Nikolo, I am not his obligation.
"Be attentive. We're here."
Natigil ako sa paglakad at pansandaling nilibot ng tingin ang paligid. Orægon Volcano is looming infront of us. If my calculation is right—it is 8077 tall, has approximately 80 mile circumference, and has a perfect shape. Mula sa aming puwesto, ramdam ko ang matinding enerhiya ng apoy. Meanwhile, I feel a different atmosphere—something isn't right.
"Something isn't right," he must have sensed it. "Huwag kang lumayo sa akin." Tinago nya ako sa likod nya.
I always tell myself that I should be responsible for myself, I should not let anyone always be my rescue. Pero paano ko 'yon gagawin kung ang mga taong nakapaligid sa akin ay hindi ako hinahayaan? From Duke Nikolo to Duchess Stelline, to Lady Sneddelline's brothers—they are overprotected to me. Then, acquintances who are always worried and too obsessed with Lady Sneddelline's safety. Nagpapasalamat ako sa pag-aalala nila. But... I need to make the record straight. I need to prove to myself that I could handle even the direst situation. Kailangan kong patunayan na kaya kong protektahan si Lady Sneddelline sa sariling kakayahan. In a survival situation like this—initiative is the foremost key to win.
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How to be an Extra?
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