You [l.h]

Chapter 14 : Reject

"Lily.. you know.. it's been a while but I think I.. I like you."

I choked.

I was drinking on my way home with Ashton and his bike because Emily had something to do with her little brother. And then Ashton suddenly made a confession which got me really shocked.

"Uh.. I'm sorry?" I asked to make sure I heard everything right.

"I like you, Lily. I do."

"Oh.."

"You don't like me back." He stated rather than asked.

Fuck.

"I.." I let out a long sigh, "I don't know, Ash. This is too soon I guess." I tried to see his face and what made me feel sorry was those eyes. The emotion they had, sadness and sorrow.
And then he turned his face away from me.

"Ashton.." I called his name softly. He turned to me again and smiled. But the smile wasn't the same smile I saw everyday. It was forced.

"I'm sorry." I finally said that. It hurt to say something like that. I did like Ashton, but in a friendly way.. I didn't consider him more than a friend. He was so nice. But.. I just didn't feel anything special towards him.

"You're so kind, you're cheerful, you make me smile everyday. You deserve more than me. I like being with you. But I can't like you the way you do me.."

"Maybe.. Maybe I deserve more than you. But I want you. And I don't think any other girl could make me feel these feelings I have when I'm with you.."

Ugh, I really wanted to kill myself. I didn't know what to do in this kind of situation. I didn't know how to deal with this. This was like the second time I heard someone confessing to me but the first one was totally different than this. I felt nothing towards the boy who said he liked me and I could easily said that I didn't have any feelings for him. But Ashton had been nice. We just met but he was so nice, it all showed in the way he talked and smiled.

"But that's okay. Don't worry. Nevermind. Just forget it." He walked faster not to see my face. I didn't want him to feel bad because of me.

Ashton's POV

It hurt. So much.
I did know that she liked him. Why did I bother saying that? How stupid of me. And I didn't get myself. I knew Lily before she even knew me but I never thought I'd like being around her this much. And I never thought it would hurt this much hearing her rejection. I thought I was all prepared to hear anything she might say.

"Ashton?" Lily's soft voice waking me up from my thoughts. "Yeah?"

"You know.. I like you. So much. You're a good friend, you make me smile and laugh when I'm with you. So don't leave me, please? I know I just.. rejected you.. but that doesn't mean I want you to go. And I mean it, Ash. I like having you as my friend."

Her words made me smile. "I won't. I won't leave you. I'm not a coward you know." I chuckled, "Just because you rejected me doesn't mean I hate you. I still like you. Well, I'm trying to like you in a friendly way." She showed her beautiful smile after that.

The question is, could I like her just in a friendly way?
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"Ashton!" Jason called me. He was my friend from Biology class.

"Hey, Jay." I was walking to school without my bike. I was kind of lazy to ride.

"How's everything with your girl?" I stopped my track. I surely knew who he meant. It was her. "What do you mean?"

"Oh don't play innocent. I know you like her. Go ask her out!" He laughed. It was funny, huh?

"She rejected me." Why did he remind me of her? I just wanted to forget about yesterday but then this human being came and brought the topic up.

"What? Oh poor my little boy."

"Hey!" I punched his arm playfully.

"I'm older than you, remember?"

He laughed, "there. Loosen up, baby boy. You deserve more than her." Huh, exactly what she said to me.
I wanted anyone but her. Was it too much to ask for?