:Distorted Beauty

"Regrets Through a Cracked Window"

Restless here I am again

In my room, yet I'm still in your bed

You draw me in close

My head nestled comfortably underneath your arm

And I am restless no more.

Here I am back in my room,

I have never left.

Memories of you inflics my thoughts

How could I ever be at rest?

Replaying scenarios of what I should have said,

Could have said,

But didn't give it much thought.

My mind has been set up a different way,

Ways that I should have considered until now that were not.

You got my jokes,

You shook my head.

We are both different

And that's why I should have said,

Be quiet thoughts and act of feeling,

You have never felt this instant connection

So act on pulse,

Allow yourself to be reeling.

If I let you in I could be happier than I am now.

Less alone than I am now.

We could have drove to Disney World and complain how hot the sun was,

But go on as many rides as we could.

Tell each other crazy stories of our upbringing and childhood,

While making angels in the sand.

Kisses on the couch,

That would never cease to stop.

Because I didn't want it to.

I allowed you not to.

But here I am alone with my morals and all,

Not really knowing you..but hoping you call.

I don't know if we could have been in love

Or if that's what you were looking for

But we could had something...I'm sure.

I should have allowed myself to open that door.