Save ourselves- One Direction

Avery

The last day passed quickly and I was almost a little sad to leave the farm again. It was like finding a home, but leaving it behind without really being able to move in.

Nevertheless, I was happy to finally see my parents again. Was it really only a few weeks that I didn't see them? I felt like it had been years. Still, I was a little nervous about what they would tell me about Lucy. After all, they hadn't told me that Lucy was suffering from a not so trivial mental illness. Of course, I didn't want to judge Lucy in retrospect, but after all I had been through, it wasn't that easy.

However, I didn't want to blame my parents for the moment. Surely they had had some reason for not telling me about it.

I wondered how they would react to Harry. I hadn't had a boyfriend yet, and if it had been up to my dad alone, it probably would have stayed that way until after I graduated. I had wondered earlier that he seemed to be more bothered about me getting my heart broken rather than me breaking an arm or leg climbing.

"You can heal an arm or a leg. But when you see your baby's heart broken, you never forget it because there is absolutely nothing you can do to prevent it from that pain," he had told me at one point and from that moment on I kind of understood.

However, I had also told him that he couldn't protect me from that experience forever because I had to learn from my mistakes too.

But I was sure he would make an exception with Harry when I told him all he had done for me.

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The night or rather the early morning we left was here. Around half past three in the morning we got up, loaded our luggage into Ed's car and said goodbye to everyone else who was still standing a bit sleepy in the courtyard. I hugged Linda first.

"I'll see you soon. Take care of you and your little one, okay?", I whispered to her.

She nodded with tears in her eyes.

"Don't cry, okay?!", I instructed her soothingly.

"It's the fucking hormones, sorry! Have a safe trip home and call us when you get there, will you?"

"Will do. And Linda? It's going to be all right, okay? You're not alone. You'll always have us."

"I know we all aren't," I nodded to her before turning to Louis and giving him a hug as well.

"Say hi to your sisters for both of us. And thank you for pushing me in the right direction about Harry."

Louis nodded and I said goodbye to Zayn.

"Until the trial is, try not to let any of this get to you, okay?", I advised him and he nodded quietly at me.

"Avery?"

"Yeah?"

"Thanks for not giving up on us. You were really...great," he then said to me.

I smiled gratefully at him.

"Thank you, Zayn. But without you, none of this would have been possible. We did it as a team."

Roxanne smiled at me uncertainly as I stood in front of her.

"I really suck at goodbyes," she said and I laughed softly.

Then I hugged her long and tight.

"I'm only going to say this once now, otherwise I'm flattering your ego too much, okay? We would never have made it without you and you are a brilliant mastermind and you are so much smarter than all of us here," I murmured her red hair and now it was her turn to laugh.