When it Rains (Completed)

CHAPTER 42

Ika nga nila, himala.

And it's just too funny to see them cry, especially Donnabelle. She really cried when they found out that I was starting to move my body. It was embarrassing for her to show how she would cry, she told me. Akalain mo, apaka-brat yung ugali niya pero iyakin rin pala.

When everybody heard the news, people started to visit me. Lori, of course, burst into tears when she came in. Akala niya raw, mawawalan na siya ng bestfriend no'ng nalaman niya ang nangyari sa akin. Siya lang dumalaw, wala naman akong ibang friends sa university pero may dala raw siya galing sa mga profs namin na foods para sa akin.

I just stayed in my bed for the whole time. Hindi ko pa rin kasi magalaw mga binti ko. But, at least, kahalati na lang ng katawan ko ang paralisa. I just need more time to heal.

Nag-iingat rin naman ako kasi kapag maalog lang konti yung ulo ko, nahihilo kaagad ako.

I was also saddened when hearing the news about Patrick's family. Naadmit raw yung Mom niya sa ospital dahil inatake sa puso. They were disappointed when the court charged him with homicide. Knowing how great they were in finding out Tita Alice's secret, it's just too shocking to see how the tables turned.

This is how evil my relatives were. Iba talaga ang tama kapag uhaw sa pera. Sana hindi na lang ako sumama sa kanila dito. I might have a better life there. Sadyang bata pa ako at kailangan may kumupkop sa akin.

And now, everything makes sense. Kaya pala nagbabait-baitan sila sa akin, yun pala may ninakaw sila sa pamilya ko. What a b*llsh*t. Pagbabayaran nila ang ginawa nila sa akin at kina Patrick. They're just digging their own graves. And for sure, they are unconsciously reserving seats in hell.

One time, Ate Trisha visited me. She was so happy to see me, but the frustrations she might've felt were too obvious in her eyes. Medyo klaro yung mga eyebags niya. I'm pretty sure she had sleepless nights trying to figure things out. She has done so many things for this, lalo na yung pekeng kasal nila.

"You were a great actress, Ate," sabi ko sa kanya.

"Thanks. Well, yung gusto ko naman talaga, yung maging artista. I want to enter the acting industry. Pero, malabo na atang mangyari 'yon dahil sa nangyari sa 'min. People are thinking, mamatay tao kaming lahat."

She held my hand and smiled, despite the situation we were in. "I'm planning to go to the States, but I have to work on these things first. I don't want to leave na nasa kulungan ang kapatid ko. I promise, mapapalaya natin siya."

Dahil sa sinabi niya, nabuhayan ang loob ko. Kung hindi siya susuko, dapat ako rin. Sa ngayon, kailangan ko munang tatagan ang loob. Utang ko ang buhay ko sa kanilang pamilya. Dahil sa kanila, nalaman ko ang lahat na tinatago nina Tita Alice mula sa akin.

Before she left, she gave some small white envelopes. Para daw 'yon sa akin. Nang makaalis na siya ay tsaka ko binasa ang mga folded letters sa envelopes. I quickly went to the bottom, and saw his name.

My hands started to shake, but I tried my best to keep myself calm. Ayaw kong maabutan nila akong nagbbreakdown. I took a deep sigh before reading the letter he hand-wrote for me.



Dear Flynn,

Sorry. Sorry for everything I've done. I know, I could've done something instead, but I completely lost my mind. The moment I saw you on the floor, I cried. I was so frustrated. I didn't keep my promise to protect you. It felt like I had lost everything. You were my everything, Flynn. You know that. Alam ko pagsasabihan mo ulit ako na ang corny ko pero, I couldn't live without you. I couldn't afford to lose someone again. I prayed for your healing, kahit makulong na ako habang buhay dito, basta mabuhay ka lang. I want to see you once more, breathing alive just like when you're with me. I hope you know that I cherish every single moment we shared together. Kahit ang sungit-sungit mo, mahal pa rin kita. Kahit makasalubong man mga kilay mo, mahal pa rin kita. Kahit mainis ka pa sa akin, mahal pa rin kita. Kahit malayo na tayo sa isa't isa, mahal pa rin kita.

Sorry, kung hindi ko na matutupad ang promise ko sa'yo, that I'll always be by your side no matter what happens. Alam kong magagalit ka. You were there. You heard it loud and clear when I made that promise. But, I hope you know that wherever you go, kasama mo pa rin ako. I'll always be with you, hanging on your neck. You can kiss it if you miss me. You can hold it like how I hold yours. You can look at it just like how you watch me sleep at night on my side. I knew you always did that.

You don't have to worry much about me. I'll be okay, I promise. Mababait kasama ko rito. Mas mabait pa sa'yo. Kidding.

I knew you'd be alive, Flynn. Keep breathing. I love you to the stars and back. I love you. Be my sunshine when it rains. I love you. I love you.

Your boyfriend in jail,

Patrick Villamore



'Di ko alam kung dapat ba ako matawa or mainis or maawa sa kanya. Pero, lumuha na ako kahit nangangalahati pa ako sa letter niya. Mas namimiss ko na tuloy siya dahil dito. And to my surprise, his handwriting is better than mine. Nagdududa tuloy ako kung siya ba 'to nagsulat. But, for sure, this letter is from him.

Hinawakan ko naman ang suot kong necklace na bigay niya sa akin. Wala nga siya rito, pero ramdam ko pa rin siya. Kahit naman na wala yung kwintas, andito naman siya sa puso ko. He'll forever stay in my heart.

Konting tiis na lang Patrick, gagaling rin ako. Makakalakad rin ako. Mapupuntahan kita. Pangako ko, lalabas rin ang katotohanan pagdating ng tamang panahon. Konting tiis na lang.

Mahal kita, Patrick.