Forever Hopeless

wish i didnt wake up with...

***Ashton'sPOV***

I rushed around to get my shoes and a jacket on. This was my fault. I should have never let her go. If I only grabbed her hand, stopping her from closing that door, then she would be sitting here in my lap safe and loved.

I took my phone out and started to call a taxi because we had no other way of getting there.

"Ashton hey calm down." Luke said placing his hand on my shoulder.

"I can't, I did this! Its all my fault!" I said, moving so he couldn't touch me anymore.

We walked down to the lobby where a body gard was waiting for us. There were some fans out side but for the first time in my life i didnt care about thr fans. All i wanted right now was to have Sam.

We all got in the taxi and drove to the hospital. When we got there, it got crazy. Calum started to panick and i couldn't control my emotions as we waited for the nurse to tell us where Sam was.

She pointed down the hall and we all rushed to the door she directed us to. As soon as Calum opened the door, everything seemed to go in slow motion. The first thing i saw was Sam, lying on the bed covered in bandages.

The room went quiet and all that we could hear was the heart monitor. My eyes glassed over with tears and i slowly stepped up to her and felt my breaths get short.

I reached out and touched her hand hoping for some reaction but when i touched her skin, all i did was let a cry out and fall to the floor. Her hands were cold as ice. This couldn't be happening. Not to Sam. I needed her, Calum needed her. We all honestly needed Samantha Hood, in our lives.

Calum came up beside me and bent over to hug his sister. He has been through so much, she can't leave him too. Not after what all has happened. I heard him start to cry which made my heart break. Calum never cries. But when he does its because something really hurt him.

Slowly, one by one, the rest of us came to the bed and hugged the fragile girl. We were all crying and hoping that some miricle would happen and we could all go back home and live the rest of oure lives with eachother, but the sound of a long loud buzzing noise shattered our thoughts. We all jumped up and looked at each other terrified. I looked up at the monitor and saw the flat line rolling across the screen.

No, No she cant! Several doctors rushed into the room and gathered around Sam.

"Boys i'm going to need you to step out of the room." A nurse said while trying to get us out but all of us refused to leave.

"No! I can't leave her!" Calum shouted, still resisting to leave.

"Please, its for your own good." Finally with great effort, she pushed us out and shut the door, leaving us and Sam apart again.

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We all sat in the waiting room waiting, and hoping. For the pase hour we watched doctors rush by with patients an nurses. There was a point of when we were sitting there that i thought i saw Sam walking away. So i jumped up and ran over to her and tapped her on the shoulder. When she turned around she looked at me like i was crazy and my heart fell because i had hoped so much that it be Sam's face when she turned. But it wasn't.
I sat back down in my sent and laid my head back to fall asleep but Luke tapped my leg making me open my eyes. A doctor was standing in the middle of the room looking at is.
We all stood up and looked at the doctor, waiting for an answer.
"Well...guys, she is going to be alright." Calum started to cry and everybody let out a deep breath. Without waiting another second I rushed toward the room where Sam lay.
I walked into the room and saw her laying as she did before. Once again I walked forward and grabbed her hand.
Only this time she moved. My eyes lit up as I went to hug her but she panicked and pushed me away. I stepped back and looked into her frightened eyes.
"Sam...are you alright?" She gave me a confused look and looked around at everyone else.
"Who's Sam?" My heart seemed to stop beating at what she said. I turned around and looked at the doctor who gave me a small nod.
"What does she mean? Why did she day that!" I said starting to raise my voice.
"You all walked away before I could finish what I was saying back there." She said drawing everyone in to see what she was about to say.
"Well, she slipped into a coma after the crash, and when we pulled her out of it she...woke up with amnesia. She doesn't remember you or anything that has happened." I stood in front of her speechless. I had no words to what I was feeling right...now.
"What?" Calum asked, his voice cracking at the end. "She doesn't remember...me?" The woman shook her head slowly making Calum start to cry more. I fell to my knees and began to cry as the feeling of everything we went through began to dissapear.
  God dammit if I only held on to her she wouldn't be in this bed wondering who we are.