Forever Hopeless

Broken love

I got out of the car and slammed the door. I stomped up the driveway and stormed into the house. My head still was hurting, and so was my side, my stomach, and leg. I ran to my room because I didn't want to face any of the guys since they got home before us. I opened my door and threw my phone on my bed. I opened my window and sat down. I closed my eyes and breathed deeply.  I opened my eyes when someone nocked on my door.

  "What do you want." I closed my eyes again.

  "Its me Michael. Can I come in?" I groaned and opened my eyes.

  "Fine." The door opened and Michael stood in the doorway looking at me.

  "I'm sorry."

  "You didn't do anything." I snapped. I was staring out the window so I wouldn't cry.

  "Sam I am the reason you were upset in the first place." I could hear the sadness in his voice. I looked at him with watery eyes. He rushed to my side and stroked my cheek. I let a tear fall down my cheek and onto Michaels hand.

  "I'm sorry for hurting you." He started to lean in to kiss me. I jumped back and hit my head on the win to seal. Michaels eyes shot down and he retracted. He took his hand away and started to  leave, but my hand shot out and pulled him back to me placing him on my lips. He placed his hand on the back of my neck and held me tight. He pulled back and looked into my eyes.

  "Should we even be-" I shook my head and leaned into him again but stopped. Someone was coming upstairs.

  "Hey Michael are you up here?" It was Luke! I pushed Michael away and jumped up. I ran to my bed and grabbed my phone, fixed my hair then went back to the window. There is a way I can get down from my window so I started to climb out.

  "Wait where are you going?" I stopped and looked at him.

  "I don't know yet." I turned and climbed out the window. Luke came in and saw I wasn't in the room.

   "where's Sam?"

  "I don't know." Michael said looking out the window. I ran down the street then stopped at the corner. I sat down to think. I stood up again when I realized I had nowhere to go. But instead of walking home I walked to the park. I sat down on one of the swings and closed my eyes. At first it sounded quiet, but as I sat there I could hear music...loud music. Curious, I opened my eyes and looked around. I spotted a house with several cars out front and lights coming from the windows. It was getting dark and I still had nowhere to go. So I got up and walked toward the house. I went in and found myself surrounded by people carrying drinks, and kissing. I walked straight forward and looked around to see if I knew anyone. So far I didn't. There was really loud music coming from every direction. I found the kitchen which wasn't very crowded. So I went over and leaned against the counter. I was just about to leave when I was approached by someone. He was tall and had dirty blonde hair. He also had blue eyes and has definitely had something to drink. He smiled at me and came closer till he was on my toes. He gripped my sides with both hands and pulled me against him till there was no space between us. I blinked and before I knew it he was kissing me. I could taste the alcohol on his tongue. I tried to get away by pushing him away from be but he held my tighter every time i tried. I felt him let go and I jumped back. Someone was holding his shoulders and pulling him away. He let go then the guy started to punch the one who was kissing me. I ran over and separated the two.

  "Hey! Hey stop!" I looked beside me and realized my hand was pressed against Ashton's chest. I quickly took it away and looked at him. "A-." I wasn't really sure what to say. I suddenly started to think about him asking me out, them me kissing michael, then him standing in the doorway. I franticly looked around to find the door, and when I found it I ran as fast as I could for it. I opened it and kept running till my legs gave out. I started to cry, some because it hurt, but mostly because I was remembering what happened and what Calum said. I let my hair fall in front of my face and cover my tears. I struck the grass with my fist in anger. I felt something touch my back, and without really thinking I swung around and hit whatever it was. I brushed my hair out of my eyes and saw Ashton touching his lip.

  "Ashton! I'm sorry i-"

  "No no its ok, I startled you." He smiled which made me feel better. He stood up and helped me up. He started to turn away but I grabbed both of his hands forcing him to look at me.

  "Ashton I am so sorry. What happened that night was nothing. I don't like michael. I like you. Ashton I was right about leave when michael came on to me. And hekissedme." He pulled his hands away and looked at the floor.

  "I believe you when you say that. But if you didn't want him to do that why not stop it? Did you even try to stop him?"

  "As-"

  "I'll see you tomorrow. Our flight is at 5." He turned and walked away. My eyes started to fill with tears again. I turned away so I wouldn't be able to see him walk away from me. I started to walk to my house but the walk turned to a run. As I ran I could feel the tears falling. I could barely see anything. I was suddenly stopped by something. I could tell someone was holding me. I looked up and found michael cradling me in his arms. I dug my face into his warm chest and let the tears fall. He held me tight and for once in my life. I felt like someone cared for me. He walked me inside and to my room. Nobody asked what was wrong even tho they probably really wanted to know. He sat next to me on my bed and let me cry into his shoulder.

  "Dinner!" Calum yelled from the bottom of the stairs.

  "You going to eat?" I sat silent for a minute because I haven't had anything to eat for three days. I shook my head and michael gave me a worried face.

  "You haven't eaten since you went to the hospital."

  "I'm not hungry." I sat up from Michaels shoulder. I was still wearing my half shirt, and the bruises were looking worse. He looked down at my stomach then looked away. Without saying anything he got up and left. I sat there confused and hurt. But that went away when he reappeared in my doorway with a plate of food. He sat down next to me and I looked at the plate. My mouth watered but the thought of eating made me feel nauseous.

  "I don't want any."

  "Well too bad. You're eating it." He took the fork and scooped up some mashed potatoes then started to wave it in front of my face while he made airplane noises. I laughed and when I did he shoved the fork into my mouth. I sat there for a second, startled, but then the taste got to me and I swallowed. I was now feeling more hungry than ever. I took the fork and started to eat. I looked at michael who didn't have any food.

  "Are you going to eat?"

  "I ate something before dinner."

  "Oh." I finished my plate then set it aside. I laid down on my back and looked at the ceiling. I closed my eyes and started to think about Ashton. But when I opened my eyes I saw Michaels blueish grayish eyes looking at me from above. He smiled which made me smile. I grabbed the sides of his head and pulled him down. I closed my eyes as his lips lightly touched mine. Slowly he leaned in more still on top of me.

  "Michael!!!" Michael jumped off and looked at Calum standing in my doorway. I sat up and looked at him as well. "Get off of her and get out!" He started to walk toward us but he jumped off and scrambled out of the door as quick as he could. Calum looked at me with angry eyes. "Sam I told you I didn't want you with any of the guys!"

  "I'm sorry calum i didn't mean for it to-"

  "No Sam. He already hurt you! I don't want you with him or any of the others!"

  "Calum I'm sorr-" I started to cry again.

  "Stop it sam!!! If you wont listen to me I have no other choice. You are staying home. You can't come with us tomorrow!" He turned away and slammed my door. I put my hands over my mouth and started to cry. I put my face into my pillow and screamed. Then I sat up and punched it till I felt it was dead. I got up off of  bed and paced around my room considering the thought of running away. I kicked my makeup stand and broke the leg making the whole thing tip over and breaking the mirror leaving shattered pieces of glass everywhere. I took a framed picture of calum and threw it against the wall breaking the glass. I went to my window and opened it. I crawled out and sat on the roof, then watched the sun set off in the distance.