Forever Hopeless

faint memories

***Sam's POV***

"Trust me Sam you will be fine." Luke held his hand out for me to take as he stood in the wing of the stage. I shook my head nervously and shoved my hands deeper into my hoody pockets.

"Please...Sam this might help jog your memory, please come with me." I looked into his pleading eyes that begged me to take his hand. I let out a deep sigh then reluctantly pulled my hand from my pocket and placed it into Luke's. He flashed a bright smile to me then pulled me onto the stage.

I was hit by a wave of screaming and bright lights that almost made me fall over. I blinked a few times before I could see again. Then I froze. There must be thousands of people in this stadium. And all of their eyes are on me.

I felt Luke drape his arm over my shoulder which pulled me out of my trance. I looked up at Luke who was by my side, towering above me and saw him give me a reassuring smile.

"Hello everyone!" He spoke into the microphone. The crowd screamed and more lights blinded us by waving its beams around.

"So...I think you remember Sam?" He said pulling me closer to his body. The crowd cheered again then started to chant my name. I was so confused. Why? How did they know me? I was a...nobody...as far as I was concerned...

"We love you Sam!" A girl in the crowd shouted loud enough for me to hear.

"Well...lets get serious for a moment." The stadium fell silent and all the attention was placed on my shoulders.

"So, Sam got in an accident and...she uh-" His voice started to shake and i could see his eyes start to brim with tears. "She lost her memory.." The crowd started to stir with gasps and whispers. Then the feeling of loneliness washed over me, filling my eyes with tears. I turned and burried my face into Luke's chest and let my tears fall. I felt Luke wrap his arms around me, and his chest start to bobble up and down from crying. After a while he pulled back and wiped his eyes then stepped back up to the mic.

"So um...were going to get started then." He gripped me in the shoulders and looked me in the eye.

"Are you alright?" I washed the feeling of wanting to cry away and faked a smile and nodded. He sighed and let me go, letting me dissapear in the wings of the stage.

I stood up against the wall and watched the boys start to play. I could feel the lump in my throat start to grow and my eyes start to water. I didnt like this feeling, and the only way to get rid of it is to feel my arms cry dark crimson.

I was about to go back to the bag for the piece of medal when i heard a string of notes that sounded strangely familiar. I stopped in my tracks and turned around.

"Late night calls and another texts. Is this as good as were gonna get? Another time zone taking me away from you. Living dreas in florescent lights. While you and i are running out of time. But you know ill always wait for you. Oh, every day, i feel a little bit further away, and i don't know what to say." Calums voice sang catching my attention. By the next verse, i found myself singing along like i knew the song by heart. By heart...
Suddenly my mind filled with memories. I was remembering something! I was...crying...and crying...and crying...but why? I tried to remember but that's as far as my mind went.
I suddenly felt like I needed something. I turned around and ignored the tears streaming down my face as i started to dig through my bag. My fingers touched a small object and I pulled it out and examined it. I held it over my arm and contplated for a moment on what to do. I gripped the blade and swung it aross my skin leaving a line of blood in its path.
I thought the feeling would go away but the longing didn't go away. So instead of sitting on the side of the stage where people could see me, I stood up and found the nearest restroom.
***Ashton's pov***
So far, the concert was going good. During the first song I looked over and saw Sam singing along. Which is great! That means she remembered! And maybe she remembered some more things. I can only hope. But when I looked back a second time she wasn't there. And for the rest of the show I didn't see her standing in the wing of the stage waiting for us.
So after it was over, I rushed off of stage and looked around, however didn't see Sam anywhere. I checked in the dressing room, the hallways and anywhere else I could think of but she was nowhere.
Dammit I lost her again. I was supposed to do a better job this time but...I guess I loose the things I love most.
My thoughts were suddenly interrupted because I slammed into something smaller than me but still ended up on my ass.
When I looked up I saw Sam with red puffy eyes and wet cheeks. I scrambled to my feet and reached out for Sam but she stepped away.
"S-sam are you alright? What's going on? Whey were you crying?" She looked around like she was scared and didn't know what to say. She kept opening and shutting her mouth like she was about to say something but nothing came.
I looked all over her to see what was wrong when suddenly my hear sank and I looked down at her sleeves.
"I-i....I don't know what to do." She seemed to squeak through her new forming tears. I rushed forward and engulfed her in a hug weather she liked it or not.
"Ow-owe Ashton let me go." She pushed me away and looked at her arms. Oh no, Sam...
I carefully took the flannel off her her shoulders and let it fall to the floor.
This was the worst I had seen her. Yes she went deep enough before to pass out, but this time...they were everywhere.