Imperfectly perfect 🖤

Chapter 5

Nandini's pov

I kept 10 alarms today so I wouldn't be late and guess what I woke up before the 10th alarm could ring which honestly is an accomplishment for me. I woke up and saw softy beside me, the teddy Manik got me a couple years ago, since we can't stay over at each others he gave me softy so I don't feel lonely at nights.

I smiled thinking about how thoughtful he is. I grabbed my phone and saw a message from him ' good morning Jaan, don't leave without eating please' his text said making me smile

'Good morning mani, I won't but can we have lunch together?" I texted him back

Kissing softy, I got up and went to shower and get ready. I wore a lowly romper today because then I don't have to think about pairing it with something else, I hate pairing clothes it takes too much time which is so stupid cause that's my job. Laughing at my own thoughts I put on sandals that are flats and walked downstairs to see the two having breakfast.

"Good morning bhai, morning bhabhi" I said kissing their cheeks

"Morning baby, cereal" bhabhi asked

"Ewww no, I want umm Maggie" I said licking my lips

"No absolutely not" she said

"But bhabhi I'm hungry" I pouted and she thought about it for a second

"Only today" she said and I nodded smiling

She got up to make me Maggie but bhai held her hand. I looked at him to see him angry again and I sighed

"Sit, she doesn't need to have Maggie, have sandwiches" he said

I nodded even though he knows I hate cereal and sandwiches.

"Cabir its okay, Maggie doesn't even take that long to make" she said

"She doesn't need to make your life more difficult" he said and I left the sandwich becasue I knew I would start crying

"It's okay bhabhi, shit im getting late ill just have something int he office" I said getting up and grabbing my bag from the floor

"Nandini, don't leave with an empty stomach" she said

So I grabbed a slice of apple and shoved it in my mouth, she gave me helpless look and I just tried smiling becasue this was a routine for me.

"Bye bhai, bye bhabi" I said kissing her cheek and she grabbed my arm

"Baby please, it'll only take a couple minutes" she said

"No bhabhi, im sorry, ill see you at the office" I said and she sighed

I ran outside and got in the car with uncle, he drove me to the office, mumbling a thank you to him I walked to the elevator and got to my cabin; dropping my bag I went straight to the mini fridge where I have an empty bowl and some ice. I grabbed the bowl and filled it with ice, then I walked tot he bathroom to fit it with ice cold water.

I sunk down on the bathroom floor with my back on the wall with the bowl in my hand. I put my face in the bowl and held my breath hoping everything that was running through my mind would stop, it would just end and my head would not be clouding with these things

The coldness numbed my face, but it couldn't numb my brain becasue it felt like a game of tennis going on in there with balls getting smacked around and I couldn't do anything to stop it. When I couldn't breath anymore I thought maybe I should just not pull my face out of there but then Manik's voice rung in my ear, 'I love you Jaan' thats all I heard and I pulled my face out

I was breathing really heavy but it was nothing compared to how I feel when those remarks are said form my own brother. The brother who couldn't even stay away from me and took care of me like his child doesnt even see my face anymore. I have no idea what happened or what caused it but it all changed from that night.