the life of ariel winters - jim chapman

Chapter 17: fighting & ice cream

Ariel's POV

"Please come in, we need to talk." Chad says, ushering me inside the hotel room.

"Chad, what do you want?" I ask, hoping this is what I think it is.

Does he want to get back together with me? That's what it said in the text. I mean, I hope he didn't just say that to get me here.

"Ariel, I still love you. I have for the longest time. I didn't mean to do what I did. It wasn't my fault. Please, you have to believe me. Rachel, she only did it to hurt you. She just wanted to have something you had. She made me do it. I couldn't help it." He says in one breath, pleading and taking my hands in his.

Ok, that was sudden but totally not unexpected. I mean, should I get back together with him? He hurt me really bad. But he also brought me lots of happiness. I was my happiest when I was with him. But I was also unhealthy, starving myself so I could fit the ideal picture perfect girlfriend he wanted me to be. I can't go back to that.

If Gerard Way can do it, so can I.

I'm staying healthy. I felt emotionally, mentally, and physically stressed out when I did that. I felt sick all the time.

"Ariel, please say something." Chad whispers, his face just inches from mine.

"Chad, how can I trust you again? How can I trust you after you slept with my bestfriend? After I was so mentally unstable, and you didn't do anything about it. You wouldn't do anything about it. I was sick, but so were you. How can I trust you after all of that!" I push him away, so furious that my fists are clenched, ready to hit something. I take deep breaths, my hands slowly unclenching.

"I'm sorry, Ariel. I was a horrible boyfriend. I was stressed out a lot, you knew that. Making videos, all of the subscribers, it was all too much. Ariel, please listen to me. I've changed. I've grew up and am ready to take on some responsibilities. And I don't want anyone else to do that with other than you." He grabs ahold of my shoulder and makes me look into his eyes. His eyes are glistening, like he wants to cry.

He was always a good actor. If YouTube didn't work out, that's what he wanted to do. He would always impersonate characters or other youtubers if I was ever sad, he knew it would cheer me back up. He could make himself fake cry, too. I always thought that it was the most incredible thing, that he could do that. I could hardly cry at sad things without trying. But I guess that was just me, emotionless and detached me. I was like that way because of Chad. He made me feel worthless, but amazing at the same time. He picked out every one of my imperfections and made them into perfection. He remade me, a new, perfect but disgusting, me. My subscribers, they knew I was changing. I didn't post as often, and when I did it was sloppy unoriginal content because I couldn't think of anything to do. I did some Q&As but it was like four minutes long. Whenever Joe and them found me, they nursed me back to health. I was eating properly, getting enough sleep, and being able to think. I got back into the groove of things. I was able to think of crazy and amazing video ideas, I was and still am appreciating my fans more and more, I uploaded weekly, and did lots of collabs. Tyler Oakley even announced me as the new Collab Whore, which is an honor. I am healthier, happier, and mentally stable.

But since I'm fine now, can't he make me even more happier? I'm alright, I'm healthy and happy. Can't he add to that equation? He said that he had changed, and I honestly believe him. The old him wouldn't have admitted he was a horrible boyfriend. He would have called me a name then make me feel good about myself.

He has changed.

"I guess we can give it another try," I whisper, still not believing these words are coming out of my mouth. "But no more after this. I'm done playing your stupid little games."

"Oh thank god!" He yells and kisses me. The same kiss that he used to kiss me with. But it's different, it's not the same. It's weird and I can't put my finger on it. Maybe it's because we're different. We've grew apart and made lives for ourselves. But now we're ready to give it another chance, to make a new path together, just like the old days.

"Do you maybe want to go get some ice cream from down in the lobby?" He asks, twisting my finger in his.

"You do know it's like 11:30 right? They're probably not open." I reason, staring into his eyes.

"Come on, live for once!" He exclaims so excitedly. I, of course, give in. I get my phone out and look through my recents for Zoe's number. I click on it, pressing the phone to my ear. It picks up on the first ring, a familiar male voice says hello through the phone that I recognize immediately. I pressed Jim's contact because it was right under Zoe's. Oops.

"Oh sorry Jim, I pressed the wrong contact." I laugh, hearing Chad telling me to hurry up from behind. "I'm not going to make it back to the room until a little bit. I got caught up in some things." I hang up on Jim, not even giving him a chance to speak.

"Ok, let's go."

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A/N

Hey guys, well this chapter probably sucked. sorry. But it's pretty long and not late at all! This chapter is supposed to be full of drama so yay! Hope you liked it!

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