Fat Girl In A Little Coat

Part 37

Johnathan and I left along with Will. He took me to his place, we hung out for most of the day until Johnathan had to work. Will and I just hang out while he was coloring one of his master piece as I was making dinner for us.

"I think Billy likes you sis."

"What makes you think that?" I was making Mac and cheese for us.

"He kept an eye on you when you were laughing with my brother and when you were talking to him. His body language speaks it all."

Long ago I knew that Will was gay. Before his brother and mother knew you could see it and feel it. Knowing the person that I am. I would never say a word. Will found out that I knew something was up he told me about him liking Mike. Sitting down next to him my hand went on his cheek.

"I just don't know about that Will."

He smiled. "They always say that you'll hurt the people that you love."

"Yes but he doesn't. He told me saying there something about me that makes him go crazy, but I don't buy it."

"Don't worry sis, when you show that you don't need him he will be crawling to you."

"Always a smart kid."

I stayed around midnight. When Steve came to pick me up, I fell asleep in the car until we got home. Steve and Nancy had broken up. Nancy felt that Steve hasn't grown yet, but she is wrong. He has grown so much, he's grown so much more than I have. I still act like a kid at moments more than he does.

When we got home. "I'm so sorry about Nance, Steve."

"I feel like an ass for I acted when she called it off." He rubbed his forehead. "I want to win her back.. or at least maybe we can take a break."

"Or what of she is done? What I would do bro. You can get her flowers and then let her go. The saying goes of you love them so much, you have to let them go." I stand in the doorway. "But it's up to you, whatever life goes you'll make it so far. Father than I can go. Don't let this get in your way of life."

"Thanks sis. But I know that if I didn't have you along in life my life wouldn't be the same as it is now." He softly said.

Going back into my room, you'd think that Billy would be here, sadly no he wasn't. Doing my homework as I almost dozed off. I made some coffee to stay up to finish my homework. I didn't go to sleep, I just stayed up cleaning my room.

At school I was on the bleachers reading history book. Billy didn't come up to talk to me, he stayed with Tommy. I saw Nancy with Johnathan, Billy was making fun of Steve about his break up. There wasn't much I could do there plus Steve might had wanted me to stay out of it, then soon after that things went right back to normal forever one. Picking me and whatever. I just kept to myself, poor Steve dealing with a break up.. I didn't like bothering him nor Johnathan about what happened but it's the same ole same ole thing.

I couldn't take much more of it, Kelsey would be giggling about something Billy had said or done. I did my best to keep my ass away from them. Barb went missing, not even Nancy knows where she is at. Nor her parents. Kelsey's friends would pulled at my hair or call me a pig.

I covered my mouth as tears rolled down my face. I'm doing my best here doing things on my own. But all I feel like is drowning. I think I cried what I could in the bathroom and waited for Steve to come to the car. Billy comes out first, I guess I don't hide things very well like I thought I did.

"You okay?" I nod my head as Steve comes out with a girl named Laurie. Sweet girl. Supper nice. I don't know her as well. But when we get paired up in classes she always thoughtful and had such a crush on Steve. She hides it well enough in front of him. That's all what Billy asked or said to me that day.

At home Steve drops me off, I go into my home and cried in the shower. I felt yucky and dirty so dirty that I almost burnt my skin off. Alone I don't know which is more worse, being alone and inside my head or the fact that I want to die.