Fat Girl In A Little Coat

Part 38

Saturday, the day were I can sleep in and not have to go anywhere that I don't want too. The sun wasn't out, I got out of my bed and headed outside. It was pouring like cats and dogs. I went into the woods that was close to my backyard. I sat under the tree as it pour harder, I think hail came long as well. Sometimes I think that my body just wants to give out on me so I can fully rest without the worry or the pain I went through it my body through. I closed my eyes as I make up a day somewhere, safe and happy.

It was at an old house that had just been remade into a wonderful home. No worries, no memories that could hurt me or others. Just me, the real fully me. Happy me.

I felt like a tap on my shoulders when I opened my eyes it was the rain. I slowly went back inside, Steve was still asleep, Pipi is close on coming home, stupid business trip. Going up the stairs, I felt like someone was here. My heart says that it's my dad. But my gut says it's Billy. I went into the kitchen and it was Billy. Why is he here after everything?

"Billy?"

"Sorry. I went looking for you." He turns around with a black eye. Seeing me all wet. "What happened to you?"

I looked outside at the window. "Eh, thought I would end up drowning myself. But it didn't work."

"That's not funny Mayflower." He was making hot coco.

"Why are you here?" I changed the subject. "You haven't been here for months and you decided to turn up now?" I looked at him.

He look down at the cup. "I know.. there is no excuse why I haven't come around." The last expression on his face. "You're not alright I can see it. There's nothing I can do to make you forget everything. There are other ways to know that you are not alone."

"But I am Billy. I am alone. I'll forever be alone. We both go through the same thing in life. You can run away from yours all you want too. For me... For me Billy... I cannot. Tabloids, news, anything that is out there with black and white pictures, there's me... And him. He will forever be apart of my life that I'll never move on or past. No matter how many times I could move, or run away from." Glancing down at the floor a puddle of water from where I was standing. "Mind handing me a towel?" Tossing the paper towels to me. "Thanks."

"You don't know that. Mayflower states are different, they might not know who you are. Or where you come from. If you could run away would you?"

"You know I would if I could Billy." But what's the point on doing that when I don't know where to run to. I know who I'd be running from. So what would be the point just stay put, be unhappy.

"But you can, no one here would blame you or stop you."

I threw the wet towel away. "No one is but I have a family Billy. Pipi and Steve need me as much as I need them."

"They can take care of themselves."

"Billy, drop it please. If I had a car and saved up some money I would in a flash, since I have neither of those. Drop it." I headed up the stairs as Billy somewhat followed me.

I sat on the floor in my room after I got changed, Billy sat behind me on the edge of my bed. He took my brush and gently brushed my hair. Billy must have done with with his mom. "How's your head?"

"Fine they took out the stitches and it still need time to heal but I haven't had any complaints."

"Good. Ya'know when the rain slows down we can drive around if you want."

"I thought you like driving at night." Grabbing all of my hair gently brushing underneath my hair.

"I do. But it's raining out. Who cares if you are with me or I'm with you."

"Kelsey will. Tommy will." Out of those two, yeah.

"I don't care anymore. I want to be around people who I care about."

My head placed on his kneecap. For a boy that doesn't care or act like he doesn't sure does care. Placing the brush down he smiles as he leans down a bit. Strong arms warps around my upper chest. "You're not alone Mayflower. I want to help but you need to say it. As a dumb stupid boy you think that I am. Well I cannot read your mind."

"And I don't want you too Billy. My mind is a scary place to be in." I felt his necklace touch me I smiled. "Why do you call me Mayflower?"

"I dunno. Mayflower just comes out of my mouth like it's nothing."

"So I trapped you without meaning to trap you."

"Yes, no matter how hard I fight it. Or make you jealous or how you make me jealous."

My jaw drops. "How in the world do I make you jealous?"

"Johnathan and Steve, along with the kids. It comes so natural to you."

"It took trust Billy. A whole lot of it. Steve did his best while we were growing up. To make sure that I was safe. He stayed in here with me until I really known that my father was put away." I sighed. "I felt like I couldn't trust Pipi also. As if he was on my father's side. But as we know it wasn't like that at all. If the police haven't gotten him before Pipi could, my father would have been in his grave by now." Feeling his cheek on the side of my forehead.

"He'll be a dead man walking if he ever got out."

"He sure would be."