Fat Girl In A Little Coat

Part 47

Getting back into the car as Billy started the car up. "This kid must love you."

"What are you talking about?" Billy back out of the driveway. "Will doesn't like to talk in front of people he doesn't know." We were on our way back to my home. "And besides he might think that your going to hurt him, like you almost did with Lucas."

"Right." Billy nods his head as he turns up some tunes. "I'm trying to better myself."

"I know. Besides this kid... Is sometimes scared of his own shadow. But I love him. We have a special bond." I looked out the window.

"You have that with most of the young ones don't you?"

"Eh, when you babysit most of them, you tend on keeping up with them." So yeah I guess.

"So how are you going to get there?"

"Johnathan. He'll drop us just before work."

"Who will be taking you home?"

"Why do you want to come Billy?"

"Just to keep you safe."

"Billy, Will knows what do if a seizure happens."

"I bet. Still I think if I went with you, it will make me feel better."

I smiled with a little chuckle. "As much as I'd enjoy if you did come. I'm not so sure about Will."

"Once he gets to know me, he'll love me." His hand was placed in my inner thigh.

"Man what are you doing to do without me if I wanted to run away?"

His thumb rubs lower but not to uncomfortable. "Run with you."

"No you wouldn't. Billy, come on the girls love you here. Even Mrs. Wheeler." Let's see where this might lead too.

"You don't think I would eh?" He drove a little faster.

"No Billy." The way he drives doesn't bother me anymore.

One of his bands was on, as he jams out to it. It was a rock band that he head bang a little. I think that this was supposed to scare me but so far it wasn't. "Woohoo!" As he went faster. I shake my head, I'm happy this. "You don't know me Mayflower." Then another song came on. Thankfully no cops are around.

We arrived to his favorite place to think. Slamming on his breaks that he curves a little bit. Removing his hand a get got out of the car to smoke. I stayed in for a moment. I sighed. I stand far enough away so he wouldn't freak out.

"Why are you being so offensive about this Billy?"

"Apparently I care more than you do." He blew his smoke another way.

" 'caring more than I do'? Billy of course I care. You have a future. Sure maybe not here. Once you graduate you can go and be whoever you want to be." My hands went on my hips. "Me.. I failing. I'm shocked that I'm not getting held back. Or who knows I will be." I shrugged.

"You think any of that matters to me? Sure I want to graduate. But know where you are and knowing that you safe, yeah I would go to another shit hole knowing that you are okay and safe." Inhaling some more smoke.

"So if I jumped of a cliff, you would too?"

"Tory." He warned me.

My arms crossed my stomach. "Billy I just don't want you to be trapped like I am."

"Who the fuck told you that I was trapped? The only reason why I'm trapped here is because of of Susan and Max. THAT. Is the only reason why I'm trapped here." He puffed out the smoke.

"I'm sorry Billy." I just didn't want to talk about it.

"I can't always express how I feel about you. I'm not the type of guy. I don't know how to be that guy. If you don't want me to come than I won't but that's all YOU had to say Mayflower." Hurt, I hurt him. Maybe he'll know how it feels when he hurts me. But I hate it even more when I hurt someone who I care so deeply about. "Get in the fucking car."

I went back into the car, I couldn't fight with him nor look at him. I disappointed him. He reminds me at this moment of my father. I hated that more than anything to disappoint him. Billy came back to the car after finishing up his cigarette. "I hurt you or disappointed you and I'm sorry Billy."

"They always say that they are sorry but yet they keep on hurting."

"What do you want me to do Billy? Do you want to come then come." Starting up the car. " I don't like seeing you upset."

"Well then don't make me upset and then I wouldn't be." Driving away real fast again.

I give up, if he come then he comes if he doesn't then he doesn't. I don't care. Back at home he didn't come in to help me with my homework like he said he would. Its just going to be a long night for me.

Not going to be until four am of catching up. Billy's light was still on like mine was. I turned on my night light as I got ready for bed. Billy's light went off as soon as I got back from the bathroom.