Fat Girl In A Little Coat

Part 40

On the way back home he still let me have his jacket for the night. It smelled like him so much. Cigarette smokes and some type of beer. I didn't mind it oh! And his cologne. It smells really good, not overly strong. When I woke up he was holding my hand. I didn't mind it just took my a second. "We here?"

"We're here... Yes." He corrected me. Which is fine... He opens the door for me as we headed back to my room. Steve was on the phone with Laurie. Talking about each other's day. So cute! And she is just like me a little over weight... Steve you better treat her right, or your ass is going to be kicked by me. And you wont like it SIR!

Billy took off his boots as he sat on my bed. "Did you really call out my name when you had sex with Kelsey?"

He sighed as his head went down. "So what if I did?"

"I feel sorry for her. But why?"

"I told you why."

"As you did. I'm sorry that she made you hurt me."

"No, no, no. We are not doing this Tory. You shouldn't be sorry. I SHOULD be. I could had let you got away or done something else. I don't want to be like him... And that's what I fucking did." He got angry at himself. All I could do was wrap my around his chest. As he let all the anger out. "Don't ever be sorry for shitty people doing shitty things. Trust me it never ends well." He exhaled slowly but he was still angry.

"That's not what I'm saying Billy. Sure you could have, you wanted to prove something that you thought no one could give you."

"What is that?"

"Love. You can be lovable when you want to be. Or else you wouldn't be here with me." I kissed his cheek. "You see that book over there?" He somewhat nods. I let go of him. "Will you hand it to me?"

Somewhat getting up as he fully turns around to face me. "What is it?"

"My mom gave me this book before she died. It was one of the many that she had for me before everything happened. He sold all the books, I never knew why he didn't sell this one." It said, 'Love You Forever.' "Pipi said that she would read it to me while I was being fussy in her belly."

Billy just looks at it. "That's nice." This wasn't making sense to him.

"Come here."

"I'm not a baby."

"Did I say that your were?"

"No."

"So will you please come here?" He did, I held him as I read the book to him. As I read the last page to him. "I'll love you forever, Like you always, As long as I'm living my mommy you'll be." Billy looked bored but he stuck through it.

"I'm sorry, I just don't see the connection."

"It had nothing to do with anything Billy. I just wanted you to clam down. That's all." I giggled.

He laughed. "Brat." He stayed in my arms. I rubbed his head as I looked at my closet. I know I shouldn't be thinking about him. But I just can't help it. Hugging me tighter as he grabs my shirt. Meaning he must had fallen asleep? Yes here's his little soft snores.

What Steve use to say was it's nice to be held by someone that you care so deeply about. That once you are in their arms you are safe. I'll do my best Billy to keep you safe. I kissed his head as I too went to sleep.

He must have flipped over in the night. I put my arm over his waist. I felt his hand in mine. It wasn't the best sleep that I had but it was okay. It was still raining as I sat up. My room was super dark as I looked around. Billy was still past out. I got up to look through my window. I watched the rain for awhile and then headed to the bathroom. I couldn't go back to sleep. So I watched Billy.

He softly mumbles in his sleep, which I find it cute. I look at his eyelashes that I could see from the lamppost outside. Around six, I started to head down stairs. Eggs pancakes and waffles with a side of bacon. These boys need to eat.

A pot of coffee is on, the boys came down one at a time didn't have much to say to each other. Fine by me. They ate almost everything. Steve left to start his job, while Billy and I are left alone again. Tonight Pipi is coming home!