Fat Girl In A Little Coat

Part 43

Joyce said I could come over at anytime, and that's what I did. Johnathan came home late from work, he saw my broken heart on my face. We went to his room as I just let all the tears come down. He rocked me. "It's all going to be okay."

"It's not Johnathan, he's toying with me just like everyone else had in the past. I want to run away and never look back."

"I would too. Hell I almost did that's when I met you. You stood up for me when I was at my lowest. And I couldn't manage another life."

"But you'd been a great photographer in the whole world if I wasn't here. Or called you all the time."

"I don't think so. I wouldn't leave my family, I couldn't. Heck I don't even know if I wanted too."

Tears felt like they couldn't stop. By the time it was eleven Johnathan took me home. Pipi didn't care where I was as long if I called him and told him where I was at. And I did after I got myself calmed down.

Crawling into my bed as my eyes rolls behind my eyelids. I couldn't keep them open to save me. My heart rate was slowing down, like really slowing down, it was a struggle to breathe. My window went up and then right back down, if it was my father, I'll stay still. If it is Billy, I'll stay still. I felt my head go up and then down. It's Billy. My father wouldn't want to hold me. He would flip my on my back, for me to face him. Nope. Nothing other a whisper.

"I'm sorry. I'll say it over and over, if I must for you to forgive me."

I wanted to say something but I couldn't bring myself. I was over it, my body felt like drifting off for the night. I could feel it leaving me. It wasn't totally dark in my room, I had a night light on. I know I'm like a child and I shouldn't need it. But I do. Waking up to a small crash and a whisper saying 'shit' my head popped up.

"You okay Billy?" I whispered.

"Yeah, I needed to take a piss and then everything came crashing down. Sorry I didn't mean to wake you."

Hitting the pillow with my head I went right back to sleep. The second time I woke up was to Billy's snores. Turning over to face him with a smile, knowing he'll never see me watching him sleep. My head touched his shoulder, my put my hand into his. Even what Kelsey said about her paying him, I don't believe. I shouldn't. Could it be real, sure. Billy doesn't see that type. But he might be if he is wanting cash.

I didn't want to go to school, wanting to skip it. But the idea of it seems to be bad.

Today is the very last game. I know o have to go to it because of Steve. Pipi will be there as well. So even if I wanted an out I couldn't. I could just fall back to sleep at anytime. My body is shutting down. I don't want to die at school I prefer it to be a home. Steve might be right though, my period might be coming. It explains the headache, my stomach being weird, and not really focusing.

Johnathan met me outside of the gym since we can't bring food in the gym unless if was for a game night or movie. "Here, it's hot chocolate. I know that it's still hot out but fall is coming."

I take the hot chocolate. "Thanks Johnathan."

"How are you doing, other than last night?" He scratched his head and then played with his hair so it wouldn't look messy. "Still want to be in another universe?" He softly chuckles.

"Always and forever. Other than that... I guess I'm okay. I'd rather be home sleeping but.. if I skip more classes I wouldn't be graduating next year."

"You know that most of that wasn't your fault right? They shouldn't count that against you."

"Oh I fear that they will even if they know everything. It wouldn't matter if my dad is out, they'd still want me here even though here isn't safe."

With an understanding nod. "Look I may not like Billy, I think he isn't that dumb to fall for Kelsey scheme. If he does then shame on him."

"I dunno. Well I think so as well. I don't know these days anymore." I felt like I'm all over the place this morning and I haven't even took a sip of the hot coco yet!