Finding and Changing Emily

Chapter 26: Emily

I awoke with my head pounding and my throat was sore. I wasn't in the woods anymore. I looked around and saw that I was in Daniel's room. That meant that he knew. He knew about all those people I killed. He probably though that I was a serial killer. He wouldn't want to be with me anymore.
"Daniel!" I cried out.
The door opened and in walked Daniel.
"Emily?" He asked nervously.
I began to cry. I was embarrassed and extremely scared. How much damage had I done? I tried to move my arms but my hands were chained to the bed.
"Why are my hands like this?" I asked.
Daniel sat down in a chair across the room. I knew it, he was horrified by me.
"I didn't want you to hurt yourself." He said.
I looked at his face, searching for answers but I saw none.
He came over by me and hesitantly brushed my tears away. That was when I saw his hand.
"Did I do that?" I whispered.
"Emily, you didn't know what you were doing." He said.
Why? Why did he always make excuses for me? I hurt him, killed a bunch of people and he was trying to make it seem like it was ok.
"Daniel stop. It's not okay that I hurt you. It's not okay that I killed civilians like a crazy person. You have to stop trying to pardon everything I do."
He nodded and kissed my forehead. He was crying then. He unlocked my arms and then pulled me into his arms.
"I thought I was too late Emily. I really did."
He looked down at me and gentility kissed me. This wasn't right. I didn't deserve his love. I pushed him away, and got out of the bed.
"Sweetheart?" He questioned.
"Daniel, how can you be nice to me? I killed people. You put vampires to death all the time, it's your job. Shouldn't you do the same for me?"
Daniel didn't move but instead looked at me as if I had grown two heads.
"We all have gone blood crazy. I did it when I was just turned too. It happens to all of us but we try to keep the newborn in a safe place. It's Amanda's fault for not watching you properly."
He went blood crazy? Is that what happened to me?
"I don't care. I bet you didn't kill 12 people. As for Amanda, it's not her fault. I went to my house to see how my dad was doing, but someone was already there. It was Jordan and you know what he told me? He said that you killed my father. He was also going to rape me which lead me to the fact that I killed him. After I drank his blood, it was like I was possessed. I knew what I was doing but, I couldn't stop myself."
Daniel looked at me. "You never should drink the blood of another vampire unless it's your mates. The blood makes the drinker crazy. Doing things that they normally wouldn't ever do. As for me, I killed a whole town in Africa, wiped it off the map. But, it seems that Jordan told you the truth. I did kill your father."
I couldn't believe it. My mate, killed my father. Yes, he was a horrible father but he was my only family left. I didn't have anyone else. I was an orphan. I know that I shouldn't care about my father, he never cared for me but, I did. Maybe it was because I remembered all the good times from when my mama was alive. It shouldn't matter but it did and it hurt even more that someone I trusted had done it. Someone who I told my story too. Someone who I had given up my chance at mortally to be with. I turned and looked at him. He hadn't moved but instead he was judging me. Watching my every move wondering what I was going to say.
"Emily, I'm sorry. I can explain."
I held up my hand and he stopped talking.
"I'm going to go see Amanda. I don't want to hear it."
I moved past him and slammed the door. I walked down the hall and knocked on Amanda's door.
"Go away Daniel!" She screamed.
"Actually, it's Emily. Can we talk?" I said.
Amanda opened the door, dragged me in, relocked it and then hugged me.
"Thank god Emily your okay! I have been worried sick and it's all my fault and.."
"He killed my dad." I interrupted her.
"Honey, I'm sorry." She said pulling me into a hug.
"How? How could he do that to me?" I cried.
Amanda sat down on her bed after pulling me up a chair.
"Do you really want to know what I think?" She asked.
I nodded and waited for her to continue.
"He wanted to get revenge for you. You were his mate, and you were hurting. When our mates get hurt, we try to take the pain away. He was angry. He didn't understand how someone could do that to their daughter. Frankly neither do I but that's not the point. The point is, after you ate breakfast your first day here, he was so angry at your father he went and killed him. That was why he brought your stuff. It's also why I left. I had to stop it if I could but I was too late. Emily don't give up on him. He loves you more than you know. I know it's hard to understand that but you have to trust me."
Amanda had know. She had know what happened and yet she has done nothing. Was it because he was her brother? Why wouldn't she tell me.
"Why didn't you tell me? I trusted you and you didn't tell me. Neither of you did. Was anyone going to tell me? I had to find out from Jordan, the guy who use to rape me. Is that fair?"
Amanda took a deep breath and replied. "You think I didn't try to tell you? He made me promise. You weren't with him while we were looking for you. He was crazy. He didn't eat, didn't talk, he wouldn't rest till he found you. Daniel cares about you Emily. Why is that so hard for you to understand?"
It was then that it hit me. I don't know if it was the fact that I had killed so many or that Amanda shouted at me the truth. Everything that Daniel did was because he loved me. He wanted me to be happy, safe and loved. He made choices that weren't selfish but that would help me, even if I got mad at him. He cares about me and all I do is push him away. I turned from Amanda and left to go find Daniel. I needed to apologize and I needed to tell him that I loved him too. I knew it in my heart that I loved him. That was why I pushed him away because. If I allowed myself to love him and admit that I loved him I could and would get hurt. Feelings allowed people to get hurt which was why after my mom died I stopped feeling. I loved reading because it allowed me to love without getting hurt. I knew what I needed to do. The only thing is, am I brave enough?