Arranged love - jaylor AU

his first love

- joes pov - 

Fuck no, this isn't happening. This woman was supposed to be out of my life for good, but here I am standing with the love of my life on one side and the snake that made me lose faith in love on the other side. She clings to my arm, and I feel disgusted by her hands on me, but I also remember the good times we had. Fuck this is confusing. 

But I snap back to my senses and push her and away from my arm and clear my throat to try to sound confident even though I'm panicking on the inside. «Bianca» I say without a hint of feelings in my voice. I don't want to know she startled me and has any sort of effect on me anymore. This woman fucked with my head, and I want nothing to do with her again. 

«Joe. Aren't you going to introduce me to the charity case you're married to? Did you lose your manners over the last few years?» Bianca huffs. 

«My wife isn't a charity case Bianca. And you need to leave, I want nothing to do with you» I say sternly and flicker my attention over to Taylor to try to figure out how she is handling this. There isn't much emotion on her face, she seems flat and detached. 

«We both know you're going to realize you're making a mistake with her. We belong together. I know it was shitty of me to sleep with those other men. But they're nothing like you. Certainly not as good in bed, the things you can do with your penis, damn, it has my toes curling even just thinking about it» Bianca says and flick her hair over her shoulders. I'm disgusted and uncomfortable at her words. I'm trying not to snap at her, but she is making that harder with each word that slips out of her mouth. Not to mention the sex with her was horrible, so I have no idea what she is talking about. 

Before I can say anything, Taylor turns towards the car and slip inside in silence before she closes the door. She is upset and I need to get rid of Bianca. I'm about to ignore Bianca and head towards the car to get away, but before I can do it the car pulls out of its spot and drive away. Okay, Taylor is pissed, and it's my fault. Fuck. 

While I'm still ignoring Bianca I turn to my security guard and ask him to get another car for me which he does. The bad part is that I am forced to stand here with Bianca while we wait. And with New York traffic in the morning, you never know how long it will take a town car to get here. 

Bianca steps closer to me again so I take a step back «you do not have permission to touch me, Bianca. I'm not interested in catching up with you or engaging in anything with you. Leave me and my family alone» I say sternly. She is stubborn, and has always been like that, but I need to at least try to get my point across. 

«Stop with the bullshit Joe. She left so it's just us. No need to pretend you have genuine feelings for her. I want you back, I know I fucked up but I'm back and I want to apologize for that or whatever the shit you need me to say for you to realize that you're still in love with me» she says and batts her eyelashes. 

Thankfully my town car came faster than I would have thought, and I open the door. «Leave us alone Bianca. I'm not interested» 

«This isn't over Joe. I'm back and I'm not taking no for an answer» she says and flip her hair over her shoulders before giving me a weird smile that's probably supposed to be suggestive. 

I don't even give her a response before I slide into the backseat of my town car. This is fucked up and I wish I never had to see her again. I put all of that in the past and I want to keep it there. but there are also memories flashing in front of my eyes of the good times we had together, and I can remember when I was in love with her. It's so confusing. I'm not in love with her anymore but she was the first woman I fell for in that way, it obviously lingers in the back of your mind. I'm not interested in doing anything with her, I want to be with Taylor, but it still flickers in the back of my mind about the good times we had. It wasn't all bad, and that's what's confusing. I don't want her, but I can't shake the good things either. Fuck this is a mess.