Its not always unrequited... (TubboxRanboo)

An uncanny threat

TW: Swearing, Bad thoughts, slight angst

-Ranboo POV-

Aimsey looks up from their own phone and glances into my eyes.

"What was that?" They ask and I just shake my head.

"Nothing." I then say shrugging "Just stupid spam."

They don't seem to buy it but go back to their phone without saying anything. Our drinks arrive and I smile up at Tubbo. He just nods back and returns to the counter. I'm not exactly sure why because there are no other customers in the shop, but maybe he just wants to be on task. 

I hear the bell go off and don't bother to look behind me.

"WHAT'S UP BITCHES!" I instantly recognize Tommy's voice and roll my eyes.

"Tommy shush!" Tubbo scolds him "there could be people in here."

"Yeah! But there aren't!"

"That's not the point!" Tubbo raises his voice a bit.

"Eh eh, take a chill pill will you Tubbs?"

I feel a tingle in my stomach at the mention of his nickname. I'm not quite sure why but it certainly isn't comfortable in the least. I ignore it and pick up my drink before taking a sip.

"Ehhhhhh and it's big man Ranboo too!" 

I nod and my gaze settles on the loud blond. 

"Ah haa-" He cuts himself off now pointing at Aimsey "Tubbs who is that?"

I grin and look away as Aimsey speaks up. 

"Yo, I'm Aimsey, what's up?" They give him a smile that may mean trouble.

Tommy narrows his eyes at them slightly and turns back to Tubbo.

"What is it?" He asks.

"Tommy!" Tubbo screams "that's incredibly rude, they are obviously a person!"

"Not that obvious." I hear Tommy mutter under his breath.

Before I can get up and attack him Aimsey lets out a laugh.

"Jesus Fuck!" they exclaim "you're a bit annoying aren't you?"

"Most people find me annoying at first." Tommy shrugs. 

Aimsey shakes their head at him and then turns back to their phone as Tommy starts chatting with Tubbo.

I watch them and the feeling in my stomach doesn't fade.

"Eh someone's a bit jealous aren't they?" I hear Aimsey from the other side of the table.

"What?" I ask turning back to them "who?"

They roll their eyes at me, "You! Obviously!" 

"I'm not jealous!" I say rubbing my neck.

"Okayyyyy Ran whatever makes you happy."

We sit in silence for about ten minutes while Tubbo and Tommy chat. I'm not jealous... am I? That doesn't make any sense, why would  I be jealous? I'm not in a relationship with Tubbo.

"Hey, guys..." Tubbo stands over us "I'm closing the shop in about five minutes so I have to kick you out."

"Alrighty then!" Aimsey stands up engulfing me in a hug "I'm off, bye Ran!"

They turn towards Tubbo and hug him quickly before turning and leaving. Tubbo casts a look after them and then goes to return to behind the counter.

"Sorry, they are a very affectionate person," I say to him.

He shrugs "It's okay, I like them, they seem nice."

"Tobyyyyyyy." Tommy groans from the counter "You won't leave me will you?"

"No Toms" Tubbo says chuckling and patting his head where it rests on the counter "I won't leave you, now get your grimy head off my counter."

"It's literally not even your counter, my brother basically owns the shop."

"I don't care," Tubbo says sighing "your head is not sanitary. I don't want anyone getting sick."

Tommy clutches his heart and staggers out of the shop with Tubbo laughing after him.

Tubbo starts closing and cleaning as I watch him.

As Tubbo and I walk home after his shift I can't stop thinking about the text message I received earlier. I don't know who could have sent it, my only thought is Dylan but that doesn't make sense. After Wilbur beat the shit out of him he moved, not too far away but far enough to be out of my life. It wasn't anyone of Tubbo's friends because they aren't like that.

Another thing about the text is that it told me to leave him. I'm not dating him so it doesn't make sense unless someone doesn't know us personally and is making assumptions. It's kind of an odd assumption to make because we don't act like we are dating and gay couples in this town are a rare occurrence. Save for Quackity and Wilbur.

"Are you okay Boo?" Tubbo looks over at me curiously as we continue you move forward.

Should I tell him? No, I definitely shouldn't, that sounds like a bad idea. 

"I'm just thinking, that's all," I reply instead.

"What about?" His eyebrows furrow in confusion.

"Just things..."

He looks away and doesn't talk to me for the rest of the way home. I don't really mind though because I have plenty to think about on my own. I had fun with Aimsey today, they really are a great friend. Tubbo seemed to get along with them as well which is nice because I love them both. As friends obviously. 

After we get into the apartment Tubbo doesn't say a word to me, he heads to his room and when I peek in at him he's curled up in a ball under the covers. He's probably just tired from his first day back at work. 

-Tubbo POV-

I haven't been feeling too well, and my father called me again today, all for the purpose of yelling at me. I started to cry on my way to work but had to stop when I got there. 

No one loves me anymore, not since I came out as gay. Tommy does but he probably feels obligated because of how long he's been my friend for. My mom, the one who is supposed to support me unconditionally doesn't talk to me anymore. She won't even let my sisters talk to me either and that's the thing that always gets to me. Lani and Tegan were my only escape from the real world and now they are gone forever. 

As these thoughts fill my head silent tears start to roll down my cheeks. I bury my face into my pillow as they slowly slip down my ruddy cheeks, gradually picking up speed. Ranboo could never fall in love with me he could never love someone so helpless and broken. 

It makes sense now why no one would love me.

My thoughts start to spiral and I put my hands over my ears as I screw up my eyes. 

I should just end it no one would care.

I'm useless.

No one loves me.

I should be "normal."

I will never succeed in life.

I should just leave then.

They only stop spiraling when I feel a weight on the bed beside me. They start to rub soothing circles on my back. Silent sobs wrack my body and my hands remain over my ears as the tears start to quicken again. 

I feel arms wrap around me and pull me into his lap. 

Once I'm settled Ranboo takes his hands and wraps them around my wrists pulling them away from my ears and interlocking our fingers. I don't look at him as our fingers twine together. 

"Oh Tubbs, it's okay" he murmurs as he wraps his arms around me pulling me closer. "It's okay, I promise, you trust me don't you?"

I nod and lean into his chest, as he strokes my hair.

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