Its not always unrequited... (TubboxRanboo)

Confessions

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TW: Swearing, mentions of assault/abuse, mentions of homophobia

-Tubbo POV-

Techno stands at the doorway with a troubled expression written across his sharp features.

"Tubbo." He states as if it's set in stone.

"That is my name," I giggle nervously and swallow again.

"As I am well aware."

I stare at Tommy's bedspread and start picking at the red loops in the fabric.

"There's really no need to be nervous." He says softly, smiling slightly.

I stare at him with a perplexed expression.

"What do you mean?" I ask.

"Your aura is all over the place," He shrugs "There's nervous energy all over the room, Tubbo you're like an open book."

"You've told me as much before," I reply.

He shrugs "just figured I would remind you."

"Fair enough, anyways what can I do for you?"

"I think we both know the answer to that."

I blink rapidly.

"No actually, I have no idea what you're talking about."

"Tubbo, come on." He rolls his eyes.

"What?"

You said and I quote 'I deserved it' after I found you literally almost blacked out on the ground with blood all over you."

"I don't remember saying that," I say raising my chin.

"You may not remember it but you still know why you said that I've been in similar situations Tubbo, I know you know why you would say that even if you were close to passing out."

"I think you may be misremembering things Techno," I say lightly "maybe you should get that checked out?"

"Now now Tubbo," He says grinning "We both know that's just simply not true."

I shake my head.

"Fine," He sighs "But eventually Tubbo I would like to have a conversation with you, but maybe you should rest first."

He exits the room, shaking his head as he goes. I fall back against the pillows and let out a sigh of relief sometimes Techno can be scary.

I drift off into a restless sleep and when I wake up again I feel a presence watching me. Techno sits at the end of my (Tommy's) bed a butterfly knife twirling through his fingers quickly.

"Hello, once again Techno."

"Great," he says setting the knife down "now we can talk!"

"Oh yippee." I groan.

"So," Techno begins "when I found you in the alley you said that you deserved what you got."

I nod.

"What exactly does that mean?"

"It means that-" I sigh and run my fingers through my hair "that I deserved it, techno. I've been told all my life that I am a failure and deserve to die. Shit, my father calls me to use slurs against and collect money."

"But Tubbo you're not." He murmurs.

"Whether or not it's true is irrelevant, Techno" I mutter before raising my voice "my family is right I shouldn't exist, it's a complete mistake I was born into this world and they make sure I know that. Why do you think I moved so far away at such a young age?"