Its not always unrequited... (TubboxRanboo)

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I know I said less than ten chapters five chapters ago but I don't know anymore I still have loose ends to tie up so at this point I'm not sure.

TW: Swearing, mentions of assault

CW: Fluff <3

-Tubbo POV-

I sigh as I go to bed that night, I should've known that sooner or later Ranboo would be taken by someone who deserves him. I want to be happy for him I truly do but I just can't bring myself to it.

A few silent tears fall from my dewy eyes as I think about it. I wish I could just tell him how I feel but instead, my stupid heart won't relent to it. I was hoping these feelings would eventually leave me because you cannot be in love with your best friend.

I brush the tears that fell from my eyes away and sigh softly once more. I feel the bed shift as Ranboo sits down. I quickly dry my face without him seeing and since I'm turned away I pretend to be fast asleep. My breathing evens out and any trace of an expression leaves my face. I feel him gently brush my hair off of my forehead and runs his hand down my cheek.

A soft breath escapes his lips as he leans down and presses a gentle kiss to my forehead. My heart flutters furiously and my stomach does somersaults. I feel the weight and shift and know that he's laid down. I open my eyes carefully gazing into the darkness. I can feel the light pink that graces my cheeks and hope he didn't notice it.

Friends kiss each other goodnight, right? I think about the sweet interaction that made my stomach erupt in butterflies and nearly start crying knowing that Ranboo will never feel the same way. I want to hit myself because of how stupid I've been. I should have stopped myself from falling for him.

I hear him move behind me and an arm is wrapped around my waist carefully before Ranboo gently pulls me towards him.

"What seems to be the matter Tubbo?" He asks in a quiet voice.

"Nothing," I squeak out.

"That's not true," He says sadly "I can tell when something's bothering you."

"It's just that," I sigh and turn towards the ceiling "nothing will ever be the same as it was, it will never be as easy. I wish everything could just go back to normal, and the reason nothing is normal is because of me. It's all my fault."

"Well, that's not exactly tru-"

"It is though and I'm tired of everyone treating me like glass like I might shatter at any moment, it's exhausting."

"We just want the best for you Tubbo."

"I know you do but what you want for me might not actually be the best, I mean think about it, you guys want me to go to therapy to eat well, and rest. But I'm tired of resting, I want to do my job and make people happy."

"I'm sorry Tubbo, I truly am."

"I know," I sigh and turn towards him.

I bury my face in his chest and breathe deeply. I smile as he rests his chin and my head and once my breathing evens out I fall into a sleep that is filled with nothingness, no dreams or nightmares, no sadness, and no heartache.

I wake up with my eyes still closed, I can feel the sunlight relating on my lids and decide not to move. I try to roll over after some time but am trapped by a pair of arms. I forgot about how I fell asleep I open my eyes gently and see Ranboo still peacefully sleeping. I sigh when I see the worry that creases his brow even in sleep. I feel Michael get on the bed and still blushing gently detangle myself from Ranboo's enclosing arms. Once I finish I turn towards the cat and start to stoke his soft fur.