Reconnecting With My Dad John

Just when you thought Tonys gone. someone comes knocking

It has now been a whole two months since i returned home from the hospital and life is at a complete standstill for me. I havent regained any more of my memories and i still struggle daily trying to figure out who i was and who i now am. I think i must have changed alot because dad is always telling me that i have changed so much since the accident. It kind of makes me feel guilty because it makes me feel like dad has lost a daugher and gained a stranger.

The accident has left me feeling like i cant be to far away from my dad and it is driving him crazy. My whole world has changed and everything that i knew before is completly gone and now dad is the only safe place i have.

John and Yoko have left to go the doctors office to check on how Yoko's pregnancy is progressing and im left here alone and i feel terrified. Being here alone in this big apartment with nothing but my own thoughts is terrifying. I know that Tony is in jail but i feel like he is  out there lurking just waiting to get me. I know that if Tony can kill his own daughter then killing me will be easy. I feel so much guilt about Kyokos death i know that i could not have changed what had happened but i wish that i could of saved her.

I was sitting in the living room just trying to work threw my thoughts when i hear knocking on the door. This wave of terror came over me as i knew it would not be dad. I just completly froze and i felt my heart begin to race and felt my blood drain from my face and my palms began to sweat. There was silence and i had hoped that whoever was knocking has now decided to go.

i heard another loud knock on the door followed by something being pushed threw the letter box which was unusual normally most letters were put into our letter box at the entrance. I was snapped outta my thoughts when i heard a mans voice shouting threw the letterbox.

" I know your in there Beth. You cant hide in there  forever. Im a friend on Tony's and im here to clear up some unfinished business. I see you dont want to be social today so ill be back. I will promise you that ill be back."

I heard the letterbox close and i let out a breath that i wasnt even aware i was holding. I had somehow gotten off the sofa and i was currently on the floor hiding behind the sofa. I let 15 minutes go by before i even dared to move. I crawled quickly over to the door and grabbed the letter and then began to crawl to the closet in dads room and i hid inside it. I opened the letter and seen that was written on it and my blood ran cold.

" TONY WASNT ABLE TO KILL YOU BUT  I WILL. SEE YOU VERY SOON BETH. WITH A BIRTH WILL COME A DEATH."

I stared at the paper for a long time wishing and hoping that each time i read it i had made a mistake and that it didnt really say what i thought it did. This type of fear was beyond anything i had felt before. When i was with Tony yes i was scared but i had kind of known what and when something was happening because i was with him. I knew who to be scared of and when to be scared but now this was worse. I didnt know who would be sending me this and why they would get involved in killing someone they didnt know. I didnt know if this was one person or a gang of people and now i knew that i was safe nowhere.

I heard the door open and i felt like i was going to pass out and when i heard my dads voice i felt relief and i just knew that i had to tell him. I had to let him know what had just happended.

" Hey Beth were home again. Where are you?" John shouted

I slowly stood up my legs felt shaky and unstable and i didnt know if i could trust them to carry me to dad. I took a few steps forward and slowly made my way into the living room where dad and yoko were standing there faces full of happiness.

" Beth there you are. We have some great news for you" dad said the happiness just radiating from him

" I have some news to tell you as well"

" well let me go first. The baby is further along than we believed she is 4 months gone already we thought she was only 2 months gone so it looks like the baby will be here quicker than we thought. The baby is healthy and is growing well which is great. We did get a bit of bad news and that is because of Yokos age this will be a high risk pregnancy so she has to rest plenty and avoid stress which will be hard seeing as she is married to me" John laughed

" That is brilliant news i am so happy for you both. Its going to be an exciting time for yous both and we will make sure Yoko gets all the help and rest she needs"

" what would we do without you?. Now what did you want to tell us?."

Beth scrumpled up the letter behind her back and put on a fake smile

" oh dont worry about it. It was nothing important" she lied this was very important.