Reconnecting With My Dad John

the wrong choice

"I don't know if this is a good idea. I really think that I just want to survive the rest of the week and go home."

"Polly where are you?"

"Is that him?"

"It is lovey. There's no need to look so nervous just speak to them and decide from there"

I really didn't want to but I felt I owed her something after the kindness she has shown me.

"Ok I'll listen to him but I'm not promising anything"

"That's all I'm asking for is to listen"

This tall man walked in and I don't know what I was expecting him to look like but he looked ordinary. Kyoko was kinda cowering behind him. I could tell she was shy and nervous at seeing me there and I smiled at her to show her that she shouldn't be scared and she smiled back but the look of fear never left her face.

"Tony this is Tilly. This is John lennons daughter" Polly said

The way she said that made me uneasy. Why did she have to announce my dad's name like it was of great importance. The mention of my dad's name made Tony scowl slightly and he quickly smiled to try and hide his true feelings.

"You have my sympathy as I assume by how close they are that you have to deal with yoko?"

Now it was my turn to scowl

"Sadly yes. I was hoping you could help me to deal with her. I want a relationship with my dad and I can't as yoko is in the middle and she has taken to hating me"

"That sounds like yoko. She hates any thing that takes the attention of her and sadly that includes her own daughter"

I was confused she was desperate for contact with kyoko

"I thought she was wanting to see kyoko she seems to love her dearly. I think my dad and kyoko is the only things she does love"

"Mummy loves me" kyoko said her face lighting up.

"No she doesn't. Now go with Polly and count how any colours you see from the windows"

Kyoko looked down and left with Polly and i felt sad for her she seemed to be gutted when Tony said that yoko didn't love her

"Yoko doesn't love kyoko she loves the idea of being seen as the desperate loving mother who's child has been ripped away from her so let's all feel sorry for her"

I couldn't help but see the hate he has for her and I can understand it though I do think it's very harsh.

" That's why she is with him for the attention of being with a ex beatle. She wants the attention. She always has loved the attention. She always wants what she can't have. She can't have kyoko and so she wants her"

"Why are you keeping kyoko away from her if you don't mind me asking?"

"She is not a fit mother and no offense but I don't want my daughter brought up in the environment of drugs and I don't want kyoko to see her mother as she really is. Kyoko has made this image of her mother in her head and the truth will destroy her"

"She will find out the truth at some point and would it not be better coming from you?"

"Maybe when she is older. I have a idea. It's gonna sound crazy but trust me it will work"

"Ok spill it"

"Come and stay with me and kyoko and I'm sure that now people know you we will get our picture taken."

"I'm so confused what is getting a picture going to help anything?"

"She never wanted kyoko until she could use her for sympathy so if your spotted with us well you now have a purpose for her. Another child stolen by the evil ex husband"

"And why would you do that? Why make yourself look bad just to help me?"

"Because I know how you feel and it's not nice and if I can help someone to deal with her then that's a job well done. I already have a bad reputation with the public so doing this isn't going to affect me but it will help you"

I am so confused if I go with him then I have a place to stay and have food and heat but I don't know this man and I don't know his intentions and if it is safe.

"Ok I'll go with you's. Thank you for helping me"

"Aww this is great. So let's go and get out picture taken the quicker we do that the quicker you get back home"

"Ok"

We walked out and seen kyoko counting all the colours with Polly and they smiled when they saw me.

"I'm going go stay with them for a night and hopefully once they know where I am then they will want me"

"Oh lovely that's brilliant I'm so glad and I'm thankfull you will have somewhere to sleep tonight."

"Thank you for all your help and kindness Polly I will never forget it and maybe in time I'll come back to visit you and I'll bring the biscuits next time"

I walked over to her and gave her a huge cuddle I really couldn't thank her enough for her help.

"I hope you do come back and visit me I would love to see you again hopefully next time you will be happier"

"I hope so to"

"Polly could you look after kyoko as I don't want her picture taken"

"Awwwww but I want to go with Tilly" kyoko whined

"You will see her back home later on"

"Ok daddy. Bye Tilly"

We walked out of the church and it was duller than it was when I entered the church this morning.

"Tony I was thinking that there is always press and fans outside the Dakota and we will for sure get our picture taken then"

"I don't know. It sounds a bit risky what if he's outside or they spot us?"

"They won't. They hardly leave the Dakota during the day"

"Well ok I'm trusting you on this"

We walked to the Dakota and the press were there as always and Tony grabbed my hand and I was confused.

"What are you doing?"

"If it looks like your in danger then they will become more urgent to get you back"

I was uneasy about this I didn't like the fact that he was touching me but i placed my trust in him and believed he knew what he was doing

We walked towards the entrance the the fans started to shout my name and I seen the flash of cameras

"Tony what are you doing with her? " the reporter shouted.

" Tilly please go home. John's going crazy looking for you" a fan shouted

"Get your hands of her" I heard a man shout and I knew that voice anywhere it was dad.

"Dad" I shouted shocked at his appearance.

He looked like he hadn't slept or eaten or had a wash. He looked awful and seeing him in this state just made me want to forget the whole plan and I just wanted to jump into his arms and cuddle him.

I tried to pull away from Tony but he tightened his grip on my hand and dragged me away and pulled me into a taxi and I looked out the window to see dad running towards me screaming my name and before I could do anything the taxi sped off leaving John behind me.

I felt like I had made a huge mistake and I felt like I could be in danger.