Reconnecting With My Dad John

where is she

Tony's apartment was tiny just 2 rooms. 1 room had a double bed on one side and a tiny kitchen and and a chair and the other room was a rather dirty looking bathroom. The place looked like it hadn't been cleaned like ever. I'm not a snob and I don't normally judge peoples homes as my room back in England is messy and I am thankfull to have a place to stay but I just  didn't feel comfortable here.

Something about Tony made me feel uneasy. He always looked like he was thinking about something troubling and I never noticed it before but he looked evil. I know that sounds silly how can a person look evil but he just had a look or maybe it was his aura that just screamed trouble.

I realised that I have put myself in a possibly bad situation. What if Tony wasn't all that he appeared to be? What if his motives were to hurt me? What if I never get outta this apartment again? My thoughts were going crazy and making me sound crazy I'm sure he is a nice guy.

I never knew the whole situation with Yoko and Tony so I felt silly trusting a stranger just because they hated Yoko as well. I thought about my mum back home and if she knew this was happening she would be so mad and disappointed in me. I missed being at home life was simpler back there though at the time it didn't seem simple but compared to now back then was paradise.

I missed my best friend Rebekah I thought about how I have probably screwed our friendship up. I have had my picture taken so many times here that I know they must of been in the newspapers back home and she is gonna see me with dad and feel betrayed that we are best friends and I have never told her who my dad is. I feel stupid now not telling her but I don't know I think I enjoy just being myself when I'm with her.

I can't believe how bad dad looked he looked distraught he looked like he actually kinda cared about me like he was worried and I feel bad putting him threw this but I will go home tomorrow for sure. I'm done being stubborn I need to bite the bullet and face dad and yoko head on.

*John's pov*

I have been frantically pacing about my apartment.
Why was tilly with tony? How did they meet? What are they up to? Is she safe?. That's a silly question I know she isn't safe.

Tony is a dangerous man I've done my research on him. He beats up women all the time and he shoots up more drugs than me and yoko combined and he's in some weird religious cult that doesn't sound healthy and above all he hates me and yoko he always has done and has spent years trying to hurt us well mainly me and now he has my daughter.

"This is a nightmare" I screamed holding my head in my hands

"I know John. It's a horrible situation both of our daughters stolen by that man"

Yoko was upset. Whether she was really upset or faking it I could never tell.

"What are we going to do?"

"Theres nothing we can do John we have been trying to track him for years and we are never successful"

"I'm not losing my daughter yoko. I'm not losing her again. Everyone I love gets taken from me and she isnt going to be another one. She is close I can sense it"

"You didn't seem this upset when he took kyoko from us" yoko said her voice full of jealousy

" Its different when it's your own child you feel it more. The worry and dread is eating me up from the inside out. I never felt that with kyoko I just felt sad"

"So your daughter is more important than mine?"

"Yoko I'm not arguing with you"

"Answer the damn question"

John looked yoko dead in the eye and he didn't care If he upset her. What he was feeling right now was stronger than his love of yoko.

"To me she is. she's is my blood she is the little girl who would sit and cuddle me while making up songs about how much she loved me. I'm sorry Yoko but she's mine and right now yeah she is the most important thing"

"Wow so you hold someone belonging to cynthia more dearly than someone belonging to me?"

" she belongs to me also she's mine and its nothing to do with cynthia or you"

"I just feel like you love her more than me"

"Who? Tilly that's a different type of love"

"No I mean cynthia"

"Not this again yoko I'm sick of having this argument"

" because you never give the correct answer"

"Well what is the correct answer huh? Tell me and I'll say it?"

" I shouldn't have to tell you"

"Yoko I have more important things to think about now than  all this crap again"

" so I'm not important and my thoughts and feelings at this moment is crap"

John stood up anger filling his face

"You know what it is crap my daughters missing and you're making it about you and I'm fucking done with it."

John walked outta the room his head racing with thoughts and worry and he didn't know what to do next he just knew he had to get tilly back as tony was dangerous.