Reconnecting With My Dad John

fun times

Dad took me to a posh restaurant. Which he has taken to calling a daddy daughter date which is embarrassing. He is being all proper and opening doors for me and helping me to remove my coat and calling me ma'am like I'm the queen.

"What on earth" John shouted

"What's your problem Lennon" I ask
him

"This is my coat" he said examining my I mean his jacket closely.

" well techinally your right but I have claimed it as my own and i rock it so much better"

" you stole it you mean. I've been looking for this for years. This jacket was with me when we played the cavern and i looked fucking sexy in this jacket i got all the birds and it made me look dangerous"

"And now it's with me when I be a being a good student at school and the coat doesnt seem to work for me. I dont attract no boys like ever."

" how you getting on at school do you like it?"

"Yes and no I like the learning part of it im like my mum that way and I hate it because if the whole social part of it"

"Why"

"Because it's a posh school and everyone is so bragging about money and status and it sucks. I don't fit in. The girls are all sweet looking in there pretty dresses and matching hair bows then theres me walking around like well a young you which isnt ideal when your a girl"

"I thought the daughter of a rock and roll legend would fit into school no problem "

" I don't know how Bob Dylan's daughter fits into school but I am a outsider"

"Excuse me your meant to be team Lennon not team Dylan"

" I'm team Lennon by blood and team Dylan by choice he is gorgeous and I wanna do bad things to him i swear. He could be my sexy tamberine man any time" i say looking forward to my dad's reaction

"You better be joking right now young lady" John said not wanting to be annoyed but his face told me that I was getting to him

"I'm serious. I love Bob Dylan the things we  could do together. If i ever met him im telling you we would give you some seriously cute grandbabies" I try my hardest not to laugh as dad's eyes are huge with shock

" if I ever see you with him I'll break his damn neck. You wont ever be that close to him to make me NOTHING " he shouted the end part making people stare

"You cannot break the love of my life's neck dad"

"Let him step one foot near you and just watch. Bob dylan is to old for you and you can do better"

"Daddy no one is good enough for me by your standards"

" your my daughter and my only child and nobody will ever be worthy of you "

"Well that was sweet and now I feel bad for joking with you about Bob Dylan "

"Oh thank god for that I was panicked. Your gonna give me a heart attack one of these days"

"Well I was half way joking I do find him wickedly sexy but I wouldn't want to make you a grandad just yet I'm still in school and I'm not wasting the years when I'll look sexy pushing a pram. In the words of the great poet himself ringo starr I'll be parading"

John burst into laughter and he laughed that hard he was crying.

" I can't believe I've missed over a year of your life your incredible. Your smart your funny your beautiful and you amaze me"

"I know i rock and you suck but I love you"

" never gonna loose touch with you again I promise"

"Daddy don't make promises you won't keep. Hundreds of times since you's divorced you told me the same thing and it always followed by not seeing you for months. Your around me and you love it then when I'm gone you forget about me"

"I don't forget about you it's just sometimes life gets in the way and things are happening and in my life things happen so quickly and before I know it what I thinks been a week has been a month."

" I just get so confused you had time to lay in bed for peace and stay in a bag for peace but didn't have time to see your daughter. It just felt like everything in your life was of more importance. Like you and yoko had a list and I was forever at the bottom of it"

" it was never like that. Yoko just kept being flooded with work and causes we couldn't pass up and when it came to me seeing you some thing else always came up"

" You mean yoko made you work so you couldn't see me."

" That's not it and that's not fair of you to say"

" don't you find it strange that when yoko wasn't allowed to see her daughter you weren't allowed to see yours?"

"Wow your mother really has brainwashed you hasn't she?"

" no not at all I think for myself and I'm not stupid. I know how her mind works"

" how can you know that you haven't been around her long enough to know her"

I could see my dad getting angry but I needed to speak my truth and I was gonna do it.

" whenever I'm around you or I'm taking the attention of her she hates it. She hates mother and so she must hate me. And to be honest I kinda hate her"

" how could you possibly hate her?"

" Because she broke my family up JOHN she took you away from me. I went from having a loving dad to a absent dad. My mum went from happy to completely broken and while your on tv declaring to the world You haven't been this happy in years were at home. I'm watching you on tv smiling and happy while I'm sad and confused and hurt and wondering what I did to make you leave us. I think I'm done with lunch"

I stood up and left John sitting by himself while i went outside and cried. Sadly the press were outside and snapped pictures of me crying but I was to upset in that moment to care.