Reconnecting With My Dad John

trouble is brewing

It was cold here and Tony had grew silent and I felt unsure about my decision and I was wondering if I should swallow my pride and just go back to the Dakota.

"Tony I thank you for what you have done but I think I proved my point and that I should go back to dad now".

Tony lifted his head and laughed a little and turned his attention back to the book he was writing in.

Does he think I'm joking?

"I'm being serious" I said

"I know"

He isn't taking me seriously. Does he think I'm a joke?

Why isn't he listening to me?

My Lennon stubbornness showed up and I thought that I am going to make him listen.

I stood up and walked towards the door

"Bye" I shouted feeling determined and a little sassy I'm not gonna lie.

I nearly reached the door when I felt a hand grabbing my hair and yanking me back until I fell on the floor and Tony was leaning over me.

"That hurt" I said tears filling up my eyes and not knowing what hurt more my head or my pride.

" that's good. You aren't leaving here not until my plan has been completed"

"What plan?"

"Awww do you think I'm just here to help you"

"Yeah"

Tony laughed and I felt stupid and naive and I started to think that maybe I don't know it all and maybe I still have a lot of learning and growing to do.

" I dont do anything out of kindness I always have a plan and the plan i have for you is gonna cause your dear old daddy a lot of pain"

"What is the plan?"

" do you actually think that im going to tell you? All will become clear soon".

There was a knock on the door and Tony's face went from looking dark and twisted to looking calm and caring and I knew that i was in serious trouble and that I made a huge mistake putting my trust in him. How he could switch between his emotions was weird and made me nervous.

Tony went to the door and opened it and a small voice shouting daddy filled the air and I felt a sense of relief that I wasnt completely alone with him now.

"Monkey your back I missed you" he said sweeping her up into his arms

Seeing that made me have a flashback of when my dad came back from tour and I always ran to him whenever he would return home and he always sweeped me up into his arms and sprinkled his kisses all over my face while telling me how much he missed me.

Being here and seeing my dad had brought back all these memories that I must have suppressed at some point. Emotions were swirling around my head and I didnt know how to process them all.

"Hello. Why are you on the floor?"

I snapped out of my thoughts and seen kyoko standing in front of me.

I looked at Tony and his expression told me I had to lie.

"Oh i fell over aren't i clumpsy"

"You are silly but I am glad you're here I'll enjoy the company"

I could tell straight away that I'll like kyoko she seemed like such a sweet little girl and she was way to sweet to be with a man like tony. At this point I feel she would be better with yoko. Yes I know yoko can be a bitch and I don't like her but I honestly feel yoko would be a safer choice than Tony. Tony was unhinged and being around him felt like being on a knifepoint you just didn't know what was going to happen.

"I'm sure I'll enjoy your company as well"

Kyoko gave me a huge smile and I smiled back.

"Time for chanting" Tony said wanting to break up of conversation.

"Chanting" I asked

"Yes we chant to the lord. Chanting brings us closer to him"

"I thought prayer did that or reading the bible"

"Yes if your a Christian"

"Then what are yous?"

"Our faith doesn't have a label" kyoko told me

"Oh that's different"

"Doesnt everybody chant to the lord" kyoko asked

" yes they do its completely normal" Tony answered

"Actually everybody doesn't chant to the lord and it isn't normal at all really yous are the only 2 people I know who do that"

Tony looked like he wanted to kill me and I didn't care. I was a Lennon after all and we push limits and I wasn't going to be told what to do or say by a stranger.

"Well Tilly is from Britain and they do things differently than us americans"

I always had this urge to rebel my mum was forever telling me that it was going to get me in trouble but she said I got it from my dad and here I was in a situation I wasn't comfortable with and that urge to rebel was strong.

"Well your mother doesn't chant" I said smiling at tony who looked like he wanted my head on a plate but I wasn't going to cower away from him like some damsel in distress.

If he is going to keep me here I'm going to make his life hard for him and if he thinks I'm gonna be some quiet little girl then he picked the wrong lennon as I am going to fight back. All I need is a plan and my plan included getting away from here but I have one major detail I'm taking kyoko with me.

"What is she like?"

"Well you look just like her and she is uhm spirited and I know that your mum and my dad miss you and have been searching for you for a long time.

"But I thought she didn't care?"

Wow tony is a nasty asshole telling his daughter that her own mother doesn't care and yeah he is kind of correct but you don't ever tell a child that

"This conversation is over" tony shouted getting mad that he was beginning to lose control.

"Oh it's only getting started" I snapped back

"Kyoko she cares greatly and would love to see you. Maybe me and your dad could take you to see her tomorrow"

" wow really? Daddy can we?"

"No we can't and kyoko I think you should go to the bathroom and brush your teeth"

"But daddy" she whined

"Go" tony shouted

Kyoko got up and walked away and I felt horrible at how defeated she was.

Being left with tony made me scared he had a look on his face and a darkness in his eyes.

He didn't even say anything he just lifted up his hand and made a fist and punched me in the face.