Reconnecting With My Dad John

Broken Daughter

*John's pov*

A month has passed and Tilly is back home. I would like to say that Tilly is now fine and her memory has returned completely but that would be a lie.

Parts of the old Tilly has returned she is back to knowing she is 15 but she is frightened and won't leave my side her spark hasn't returned. There are parts of her memory that are completly gone. She still has no memories of Cynthia and cyn being here was causing Tilly so much distress so cyn had to fly back home.

Sometimes little snippets of her memories come back to her which is a good sign that she isn't lost completely she just needs time and patience and love and in time I hope I get my Tilly back. She looks so lost like she knows that there is something wrong and that she has missing parts of her life that she can't reach and she just doesn't know how to get them back or how to get her life back.

"daddy where are you going?" Tilly asked panic laced threw her voice.

"I'm just going into the kitchen"

"ill come with you."

"you don't have to ill be a few steps away you stay on the sofa."

"no ill come with you."

This is a new thing she won't let me out of her sight she just about let's me go to the bathroom by myself. I'm the only person in this new world that she knows the only familiar thing she has and she is in a nightmare and I'm her comfort blanket. The second that I'm away from her she freaks out and has panic attacks.

We went to the kitchen to make some dinner and I dropped a pot and the noise scared Tilly and it brought back another memory.

"ahhhhhh don't shoot me please don't." she screamed while struggling to breath.

She was shaking, her thoughts were elsewhere like she was reliving that horrible moment all over again and she looked so vulnerable and fragile and I wanted to kill Tony for what he has done to my daughter.

" Tilly you're safe you're OK. Come here your OK."

John went and held his daughter close to him trying to take away every bad memory.

"I was so scared. I remember it now I remember that moment."

"you don't got to talk about it."

"I want to. Tony wanted me to choose."

"what do you mean choose?."

"he wanted me to choose who got shot. I had to choose between you and me."

John was shocked he couldn't believe Tony would make her decide that and he was shocked that she choose to get shot.

"why didn't you pick me? You should of picked me Tilly."

"you are needed more. So many people need you. Yoko needs you and  I couldn't take you away from her and your fans need you as you mean so much to the world and I couldn't choose for you to be hurt. There wasn't a choice really"

John was nearly crying Tilly had sacrificed her own life for his and he never had anyone love him enough to do that

" I love you so much Tilly."

"i love you to daddy."

Yoko walked into the room and the atmosphere changed. I can't quite pinpoint it but there was a shift in the air."

"have you told her yet John?."

John gave a dirty look to yoko that screamed now is not the time.

"tell me what?"

" it's nothing you need to worry about"

"I'm pregnant" yoko said her face beaming with happiness while tillys was full of shock.

"what? Your going to have another child?."

"yes and we're so happy" yoko added

"what will happen with me?."

"what do you mean? " John asked

"you're not going to want me when your new child comes why would you? Why would you want your broken child when you will have a brand new one?."

Tilly felt like her security blanket has been ripped away from her and she felt something that kind of felt familiar she felt abandoned.