History - Bucky Barnes

Remember me

~ Vivian
I quickly grab my things and teleport to the stark tower. It's only been 10 minutes since I saw them on my tv but when I get up there, they're gone.

I run into Tony's lab and don't see them so I run through the halls looking in every room.

I run past the kitchen and someone yells out.

"In here speed racer"

Tony?

I run back and see Tony standing by the stove and Bucky sitting at the island with a cup of coffee.

I look at Tony confused.

"It wasn't him. You're all right. Besides, if you're still in love with him after almost a century then he must've been something back when his mind hadn't gone through a blender."

I take a deep breath I didn't realize I was holding.

"Thank you, Tony."

"Don't thank me. He's the one that came here to apologize."

I take a long look at Bucky. He looks at me like he's scared for what I'm going to say to him.

"I've got more important things to do anyway, things that make me money." Tony says before walking out.

"You remember me?" I ask.

"It came back like a flood. After you told me about the time I took you to dinner and spilled wine all over the nicest shirt I owned...you left out the part about that being the night I proposed."

I nod and slowly walk to the other side of the island and take a seat next to him.

"Why after all those stories did you leave out the parts about us being together."

I look up at him with tears forming in my eyes and softly say.

"You can't tell someone they love you."

He doesn't say anything so I do.

"Why did you save me when I fell out of the hella carrier?"

"I couldn't remember you but I could steve. I knew you were important to him...and I knew I was important to you based off of the way you screamed for me to remember you. It wasn't fear of getting hurt it was the fear I wouldn't know you. Or maybe it was that I would never know myself."

He pauses before continuing.

"After all the pain I'd inflicted on you and Steve I knew you'd die before you let me go."

"I'm still kind of pissed you shot me" i say laughing.

"Yeah not my finest moment. I'm sorry about that"

"At least you looked all hot and serious doing it. I can't be that upset."

And for the first time since 1943 Bucky smiles. I nearly melt.

"Do you want to go to the coffee shop down the street? I saw it walking here and we could get a jelly donut to share."

"No."

"Oh okay." He says sounding upset.

"No no no I mean no I don't want to share! I'm starving." I say grabbing his hand on accident.

He doesn't pull away but he looks down with a sad expression so I pull away and stand up.

"Let's go" i say and clear my throat.

He grabs his jacket and walks up to my side grabbing my hand.

"Let's go" he says smiling down at me.

We walk to the coffee shop talking about old memories trying to figure out what he remembers and what he doesn't. We laugh and joke. It feels like a dream come true.

Maybe because it is.

We walk in and almost immediately i hear my name being called.

"Vivian! Hey!" Sam says.

"Hey, Sam. It's nice to see you."

"You too!"

"I'm sorry I left your house in such a bad mood last time." I say.

Sam tried so hard to cheer me up after Steve sent me off to wakanda and I shrugged him off.

"No that's alright. I was wondering though, have you thought about going to the group I told you about?"

"Uhm not really I haven't had much time to."

"I understand, I'm heading out but it was nice seeing you!" He says and i nod.

I turn and get into line with Bucky who keeps his head down.

"What group?" He asks.

"Oh well when Steve told me you were alive I didn't take it too well and i had opened up to Sam a bit about my nightmares and panic attacks. He suggested a group for people with ptsd. It's funny isn't it."

He looks at me confused.

"How is that funny, Vi"

"Well my body heals in every way shape and form. I can't forget things even if I wanted to. I'm incapable of getting a cold or a headache but I can still get the mental stuff. You know, triggers, panic attacks, nightmares, trust issues, flashbacks." I let out a small laugh thinking about the irony.

Bucky doesn't say anything but we're up to order so it keeps from an awkward silence.

"Two black coffees and two jelly donuts" i say to the barista.

I hand her the money and she brings us our order.

Bucky and I walk outside to a table to sit and eat.

"If you remembered me when you came out why did it take you so long to come and see me." I ask.

"I wanted to make sure I wouldn't hurt you."

He says it like it's poison on his tongue.

"It's not like you really could, I mean not permanently I think." I say.

"You think?"

I take a bite of my donut and swallow it before talking.

"Yeah uhm. As far as we could tell, I'm indestructible to bullets, stabbing, etcetera. But if I were to like get caught on fire or decapitated, who knows."

He nods.

We finish eating and stand up Bucky freezes.

"You okay?" I say.

"Yeah uhm but T'challa had someone drop me off in the area so I don't have a way back to wakanda.

I laugh and grab our trash throwing it in a near by trash can.

"Ready?"

"For?" He says.

I grab his arm and teleport us to my room in wakanda.

Bucky stumbles back and grabs his mouth like he's going to vomit. 

I laugh at him.

"It's a little uneasy the first time"

"Yeah you could say that" Bucky says while finally standing up straight.

"It's late so I should shower and probably go to sleep." I say.

"Yeah okay. Uhm I'll leave you to it." Bucky says turning to open the door.

"Or. You could stay?" I say.

He turns around and smiles.

"Okay"

I don't want to rush him into anything so I grab my clothes and towel and walk into the bathroom leaving him laying on my bed watching tv.

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