Depressed Peter parker

Four

I waked up in Harry's bed. This time I felt off his bed. He turned around me

"You okay?" He asked me and handed me his hand

"I think your bed is cursed or something" I said as I toke his hand and sat on the bed again.

I made a Pause from Spider-Man scince I was at college. I just couldn't deal wit it it affects my mental health in a bad way. But I feel guilty I mean the people need a Spider-Man don't they? I think I should be Spider-Man again.

"Peter... we need to talk about it" Harry interrupted my thoughts

No
No
No
Just no

"Peter?" Harry asked when I was silent for four minutes

"Yeah?"

"Why did you start it?"

"I don't know it started when I had a bully named flash and when mr stark died...and then the blip,then my aunt diedand I had no one left so it got just worse... I just needed to feel something I needed to know that I'm still alive that I'm still here" I said nearly breaking into tears

Why do I tell him all that? He hates me now doesn't he?  maybe I shouldn't have said that.. I shouldn't share so much with him. I just knew him for like 4 days why do I trust him so much? Maybe because I don't have any one left except happy and Harry.

Harry erased my thoughts

"it's okay to cry I know in the beginning it will be bad it will be most bad days but when you let me help you you can defeat it... well I can help you live with it and then there will be mostly good days of course there will be bad days too but less. Let me help you peter"

"Why do you care so much?"

I mean he just knows me for 4 days? Why does he care? He don't know me for so long.

He doesn't
He's just playing with you

I tried to ignore the thoughts

"Because I don't want anyone especially my friends to feel the same way I did I don't want them to go through the same I did"

We are friends? I have one new friend. But I just hope he isn't in danger or dies or tries to kill me. But I don't think he kill me I mean he helps me.

He isn't your friend
He just feels sorry you don't have anyone anymore
He doesn't even like you
He will be in danger. You will bring him danger.

"Stop" I said to myself

"Can we talk later again? I need to go to a friend" I said

"sure just don't do anything....stupid please" he said as he saw me walking out of the door

I put my Spider-Man suit on and swinged through the campus. I was at a roof on the tallest Building here. I was searching if someone needs help but nobody seemed to be in need for help
Then the voice began

Jump
Jump off the roof
And you there will be peace
You will see all you love again
Just jump

No then everyone knows again that Peter Parker is Spider-Man

Who cares? You dead? Then it's not your problem anymore

I heard a noise I turned around I saw mj

"Oh hello I just go again" she said and put her hand on the doorknob

"No it's okay I go" I turned to face the campus and not her

I could tell her
I could tell her who I was.

I turned to face her

"Whats your name?"

"Peter...don't be stupid"

How does she knows my name?

I put off the mask and looked at her suprised

"Don't look at me like that I'm not stupid"

"You be in danger" I say as I walked to her

"Don't worry I know you have a new friend or boyfriend. I just want to be friends again"

"Does Ned know?" I asked looking at her but not with the same feeling anymore.
There wasn't any romantic feeling I had for her.

They are gone.

"No it's you choice not mine"

"Well happy knows too"

I could be friends with the two of them again
Nothing dangerous happen in the past half year
Maybe the danger is gone
I could tell him the true

"I go talk to him" I said

"And oh peter?" Mj said

"Yeah?"

"Don't people will miss you"

"I didn't-"

But before I could explain myself she was gone

I swinged back and before entering the room I changed to my casul clothes
So mj knows I should tell Ned now that nealry all know the true. Harry of course not I don't tell him I'm Spider-Man yet... maybe never we'll see

"Hello" Harry said to me while reading
A book

"Hello..." I walked down to my bed and layed down this day was stressing. And tomorrow I had to talk to Ned I should rest.

"Goodnight Harry" I said as I closed my eyes

"Goodnight peter" he said not looking away from his book. It was an alright day. I mean I didn't killed my self or hurt myself through about it but didn't I do it.