Depressed Peter parker

Fourteen

"Did he sounded mad?" I asked when Harry hung up

"no he's just worried about you like me" he said and sat down next to me "he is here in a few minutes"

"okay..." I said but what if he hates me? I lied to him I lied to all of them I lied to the people I care about I'm such a freaking loser why am I like this? Why can't I be fucking normal? Like everyone else why do I have to be like this? I'm such a loser

I was in the car with dad i didn't said anything to him the entire ride or when he knocked on my and Harry's college room

"Pete I'm not mad okay? I'm just worried" he said

"I rather be in college again" I said even though I knew I would be in more danger there

I just miss the Diversion from my thoughts and at home I just don't have a diversion I'm just alone with my thoughts and I hate it

"Pete we talked about this" he sighed

"but I'm better" I said but I didn't even belive myself so why would he?

"One week" he said

"what?" I asked confused looking at him

"after one week maybe you can go back to College but only if you better and clean okay?" he asked

"yes" I said I just have to stay one week clean and I will get back to college

"Flash we Have also talk about him" dad said as we were sitting in the living room watching Brooklyn nine nine

"uh" was all that came out of my mouth

"he can't do anything to you anymore or to us we save here" he said

"but my friends in college aren't he could kill them anytime!" I shouted

"I will get them bodyguards okay?"

"Yeah" I said but I just imagine my friends laying dead in their room killed by flash it didn't got out of my head I just want them to be save and happy. I went to my room but Flash wouldn't get out of my head and then I had another flashback

Flashback begin

I was nearly at home when I heard him yell my name I stopped walking and turned around there he was flash walking Torwards me I could run but I stopped running away long ago he was nearly there in front of me his face was filled with pure evilness and I just thought what will he do this time? The question repeating in my head

Flash leaded me to a park it was night and there weren't any people around us

"wha-what d-d-do -y-you -w-want?" I asked in fear

"stop stuttering it's so embarrassing you scared of me?" He laughed

"n-n-no!" I lied

"you're not even a good liar" he said and then he punched me in the face until i had a black eye and my nose began to bleed I didn't even begged him to stop anymore because I knew he would just go on

"stay up freak" he said and punched me one last time I began to slowly stand up he began to walk so I followed him
Because if I wouldn't it would be worse then it already were

Flash stopped at a bridge underneath was water

"w-what are w-w-we do-doing here?" I asked

"jump" he said

"w-what?" I asked "

"jump or I push you" he said now in an Angrier tone

I climbed on the bridge I looked down it was high and underneath was at least water so there would be a change I wouldn't die I looked at flash who nodded at me to jump so I did I jumped off the bridge into the water and then I feel in the water

When I was awake again flash was on top of me and I was still alive flash saved me

"why?" I asked him

"why what?"

"Why didn't you let me fucking die" I asked and looked at him

"who should I bully then?" He said and went off me he went away

When I was at home aunt may was waiting she asked where I was but I just told her I went swimming and had a fight with some guy I don't think she believed me but she didn't asked any questions either I just went in my room and went to sleep

Flashback end

Why didn't he just let fucking die in peace? All of it would be better if I died this day nothing would have happend if I was dead long ago. But I'm here alive and a loser like I always was a freak nothing more