When I woke up I could smell the hospital
"No" I wishpered to myself I opened my eyes and saw Harry,mj,Ned, and...happy sitting on chairs in the hospital room
"Hey you awake" Harry said and hold my hand
"How you feeling?" Happy asked me worried
What a dumb question I'm lying in a hospital bed how was I feeling? I'm still alive I feel terrible but I can't be mad at happy so I smiled
"I'm fine" but I think they know the truth now.
I didn't wanted him to see me like that I didn't wanted that all of them saw me like that
I looked at my wrist they were bandage on
"I wanna go home" I said and sounded like a five year old. I don't even have a place to call home expect maybe college . I just wanted to go out of here and act like nothing happened but I know I can't do that.
"I'm afraid you can't do that" happy said and sat down next to me "but I think now is the right time to tell you're something"
"Tell me what?" I asked
"Peter...tony is alive"
What the hell how? I saw him die I saw him turning into dust right I. Front of me how can he be alive?
"Don't play games with me I saw him die!" I shouted
And then someone entered the room
"Hey kid..." that's not real that's not Tony I saw him die it's just a dream I tell to myself
"You're not mr stark I saw him die" I cried
"You can call me Tony and I am real pete" tony said and sat down next to me. Harry and the other left the room
"Who the hell were you?" I asked looking at him I still can't believe he is alive and here
"Look I'm sorry but there was unfinished business I had and I couldn't afford that you were in danger but I'm here now and I won't leave you ever again okay?" He said calmy
"I'm sorry" i said
"For what?"he asked
"For this..." I looked down on my wrist
"Pete... it's not you fault okay? We can go through that together and you know maybe it's better if you stay with me in the stark tower for a while"
"But college"
"College can wait your health is more important"
"When can i go out of here?"
"Tomorrow now get some rest" he said and left the room
Short after Tony left Harry came in he sat on a chair next to my bed
"I'm sorry"
"Peter... don't apologize you can't do anything for that"
"You tried to help me but I did...that I'm sorry You have peace from me mr stark...Tony said I should stay with him for a while" I looked at my hands I didn't wanted to look into his eyes
"Yes i tried to help and I'm not mad you won't heal over night it takes a lot of time and with the right people you can get through this" he toke my hand
"I will miss you but hey maybe I could visit you in stark tower?" Harry asked and forced a smile
"Yeah sure but I think mr stark decides that"
"Okay I ask him"
Harry left the room and mj and Ned came in
"Hey..." mj Said
"You know i thought about your words"
"What?" Mj seemed confused
"You asked. If I belive Harry"
"And?"
"Yeah I do I mean he helped me he saved me why would he lie? He's a nice guy"
"Alright I'm go talk to me stark when we can visit you"
"Yeah Harry did that too" mj left leaving just Ned and me
There were akwarkd silence before he left the room just leaving me behind with my thoughts
Maybe I should sleep but I couldn't belive what I did I tried to kill myself
Yeah you did
But you failed
Like you fail at everything
You failed at protecting aunt may
You useless
If you can't even kill yourself what can you do?
Nothing that's what you can do
Stupid boy
"Shut up" I screamed out loud
Tony ran to me and immediately hugged me
"Hey it's okay I'm here" he said
I was shaking I think I had a panic attack I couldn't breath
"Breath Pete breath in and out"
I did that and after a while I was calmly
"Make it stop please"
"Stop what" he asked confused
"The voice in my head is telling me bad things please make it stop" I cried in his t-shirt
He looked at me worried
"Pete what is the voice telling you?"
"Bad things...that uh I should hurt myself and that I'm am useless and stupid"
"You know that's not true right? You're the smartest nicest person I know"
"Yeah... I wann go"
"Tomorrow I go and bring you things in the stark tower"
"Oh I ruined you t-shirt I'm sorry"
"It's okay I have plenty of them" he kissed my forehead and left
Leaving me alone again.
YOU ARE READING
Depressed Peter parker
FanfictionI don't know what to put here I have really to much free time Tw: Self harm Suicidal thoughts Eating disorder Flash Abuse Mention of calories Sucide And more The whole book is basically a trigger warning so don't read if it triggers you
