Depressed Peter parker

Twelve

after dad picked me up I went straight to my room dad yelled my name but I just ignored it I jumped in my bed I heard the voice in my head again

You know flash will kill him don't you?
And its all you fault
You couldn't keep you mouth shout
He's gonna kill Harry and after it all you other loved ones
You can't do anything about it
Youre weak

"Shut the fuck up" I said to myself I couldn't take it anymore the voice in my head and then sometimes the voice sounded like flash it was too much I got a flashback again

Flashback begin

I went out of school I wanted to go home when a car stopped next to me

"get in penis Parker" flash said in a tone that didn't allowed a no so I opened the door and sat down next to him

"where-where are we go-going?" I asked afraid

"you find out soon enough" he said and drove  away

When he stopped driving it was already dark and I didn't know where we were flash pulled me out of his car into a dead end and then he pulled out a gun

"wha-what are you-do-doing flash?" I was sacred does he want to kill me? Or just hurt me? What does he want from me?

"What's does it look like? I'm holding a gun at you face"

"w-why?"

He put the gun harder on my head he won't kill me right?

"Put you shirt off " he said

I swallowed

"w-what?"

"You heard me! Or do you want that i use the gun at you?"

I toke of my shirt flash grapped it

"you pants as well" I was on the verge of tears as I pulled down my pants and flash grapped them as well

"please flash" I begged

"shut up"

i was frezzing I had no idea what he wanted from me

Flash pulled out a knive and I was so scared I couldn't move

"no please flash don't" I cried

"you so pathetic" he said as he began to stab a big wound on my back still holding the gun at me I cried I just wanted it to stop he just made this then he turned to face me

"good luck finding your way home" he said as he run to his car and drive away leaving me only in boxers alone in the cold

I had no idea where I was or how I would find my way back home but after maybe five hours  of walking,freezing and hidding so no one saw me like that I found back Home

Flashback end

Even when he isn't even there flash makes my live bad its true what he said I can't escape him ever he will always be there in my head 

I heard dad open my bedroom door I faced him he hold a paper in his hand

"what's this?" I asked

"the adoption paper you have to sign it" he came to me i toke the paper from dad and signed it

"you now officially a stark"

"yeah I'm now Peter Benjamin Parker stark" i smiled

"and is everything okay?" He asked worried i nodded he stayed up "anyway dinners ready"

"I'm not hungry" i said

"well I save some food for you then" he said as he closes the door

My phone buzzed I looked up who texted me there was a message from mj

Mj:
Yo Parker Tony said i could visit you with Ned tomorrow if that's okay with you?

I texted back:
Yeah sure you two can come see ya tomorrow

Mj:
See ya Parker

I put my phone away and went to the kitchen I saw the plate dad left me i toke it and then I heard the voice again

You sure you want you to eat that?
Look at you!
You don't deserve food
You are a disappointment

I put the plate back and went to my room again the voice was right i don't deserve food i shouldn't eat I'm a disappointment i mean I couldn't save aunt may i couldn't even stand up for myself

I cried myself to sleep.