Depressed Peter parker

Twenty

I heard a shoot and flash falling down the ground then I saw dad and ,Bucky holding a gun in his hand he was the one who killed flash and I saw the other avengers how did they find me? Is it really over? Is flash really Dead? Or am I just dreaming?

Dad opened the chains "are you alright?" He asked me

"obviously" I laughed but he didn't

"you save now he's dead" I heard Bucky say who standing over flashes body and checked his pulse

"is it really over?" I asked

"yes Pete it is" dad said and picked me up

"I can walk on my own!" I shouted

"No Bruce is checking you up first" he said  and carried me to the car as we drove home.

"What happened to you hand?" Bruce asked me while I was laying in a bed in the medical bay

"oh water" I said he nodded as if he unsterstood what I was trying to say

"it's gonna leave scars" he said

"I'm used to it" I shrugged

I mean my whole body is covered in scars it isn't something new to me and I don't care anymore Bruce made bandages over my hands

"you need rest" he said and left me in the medical bay alone and  then I saw someone at first I thought it was Harry but when I started to look closer I saw flash...

This can't be happening he is dead he layed on the floor dead just a few hours ago but on the other hand dad too faked his death so why not flash? But no I only imagine this in my head it's not real

„You-you are dead!" I shouted

flash walked towards me "I know but this won't stop me from hurting and hunting you"

"it isn't re-real yo-your not really here"

"it is just in you head but then why do you stutter then? Still scared of me even though i'm dead I see freak" flash said

I hate him I want him to go the fuck away he is dead why can't he leave me alone? I wish he would go away

"ju-just go aw-away" I stuttered

"stop stuttering it's embarrassing Parker" he said

he was right it's embarrassing I stutter because i'm fucking scared of him but he is dead there is no reason of being scared of him anymore he can't hurt me anymore he can't do anything to me after all he is dead

Bucky came with two plates of tacos he handed me one which I toke and then he sat down on a chair next to me with his taco in his hand  he eats with me everytime  since that day who Sam made spaghetti maybe he just likes sams food I mean I like his food he can cook great and when someone eats with me it's a bit easier for me to eat I thank Bucky for that he is a great uncle I love him

"Peter?" He asked I nodded and toke the taco and we both bite down at the same time I couldn't eat anymore I nearly eat the whole taco

"great job Peter you doing better" he said and clapped me on the shoulder but it hurt so I flinched

"oh I'm sorry I didn't wanted to hurt you"  Bucky said

"no it's okay it's just that it still hurts a bit " I said

"I unterstand" he nodded  and left the room

"Hello spidey" harry came into the room sitting down on a chair

"hey" I said "so...how are you?"

"I'm glad flash is dead but I still can't belive it" I said

"but he is peter he is dead he can't hurt you ever again" he said

I saw flash behind him making fun of harry I should tell him that flash in fact can hurt me even though he is dead but I can't they already to worried about me I don't want them to be worried more so I kept it a secret like I did all the years with Spider-Man and what flash did to me when he was still alive
I kept it a secret as long as I could...