I beated the guilt well... I ignore it but the guilt was still there I just didn't listen to it but the voice and flash I tried to fight it I really did but it didn't fucking worked I tried everything I screamed at him but he just didn't fucking disappear I fucking hate him I wish he would leave me the fuck alone
"Fucking disappointment" I heard flash say when I struggled at a project for dad in the lab I ignore him but he just talk anyway "stupid penis Parker can't even do anything right it's so simple it's just a suit your working on"
"shut the fuck up!" I shouted at him
"oh a wonder happens for once you didn't stutterd" he clapped his hands he fucking annoying me right now he annoying me always though I hate him
"Pete you did great" dad said when he watched over my shoulder and when he saw that I installed a new healthy care system in his suit
"thanks dad" I smiled at him
"i'm proud of you wanna watch Star Wars with me?" He asked
he didn't ever watched star wars with me Bucky always did
"yes!" I said excited Its gonna be great day with my dad nothing can ruin it not even flash or the voice or the guilt it's gonna be a great day
Bucky joined us in watching Star Wars with popcorn "you want some?" He asked and handed me the bag of popcorn
I wanted but I just thought of the Calories 375 I thought I wanted popcorn but my head wouldn't allow it
"no thanks uncle Bucky I'm fine" I said and gave him the bag back
I'm so disappointed I can't even eat popcorn while watching a movie I'm embarrassing them I hate myself
"yeah you are a disappointment" I heard flash say who was sitting next to me I ignore him I don't want dad and bucky to know I see him again. I keep it to myself
„Dad?" I asked
"yeah?"
"can I go back to college? I asked
"Pete we already talked about it"
"but dad-„
he interrupted me
"no buts kid I just don't want you to be in danger maybe it's time to tell you another secret..."
"what? Are the other avengers like Nat still alive?" I asked hopefully and confused
"no sorry Pete you know I have many enemy's don't you? And well mysterio was one of them"
"so-so he's not dead?" I asked "
"well...no" dad sighed
"no" i whispered
"I'm sorry Pete but you don't have to fight I do it concentrate on getting better"
"okay" I nodded
This can't be fucking happening he is dead I saw him die maybe it was just an illusion does that mean it wasn't a nightmare but an illusion? Mysterio is back no I just got better I wanted to get better
Well I guess it's my Peter luck who always gets me there
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Depressed Peter parker
FanfictionI don't know what to put here I have really to much free time Tw: Self harm Suicidal thoughts Eating disorder Flash Abuse Mention of calories Sucide And more The whole book is basically a trigger warning so don't read if it triggers you
