„What's up loser" I heard mj say
I didn't saw her in a long time she was busy with college Also I didn't tell her anything about flash and all that she doesn't even know I tried to kill myself again she should concentrate on college
I turned around „hey mj" I said
"how you feeling?" she asked
"fine" I lied
I felt terrible
"you sure?"
"Yeah.."
"Peter...I can smell when your lying you can't lie to me"
"uh well..."
"do you wanna talk about it?" she asked
She derserve the truth I shouldn't lie to her she's one of my best friends if I told Harry about it I can tell mj about it
„Don't be mad at me"
"I won't I promise"
I began to tell her about flash voice in my head and that I sometimes see him I even told her about the dream I also told her I tried to kill myself again i too told her Harry and I were a couple I told her everything
„Oh my why didn't I had notice? That flash And you... why didn't I have noticed you always came to school with a black eye I'm so stupid I could have helped you and then when. Flash... I'm so sorry I didn't help you" she cried in my arms
"mj it's okay I didn't told you you can't do anything for it it's not your fault don't blame yourself"
"but if I just had notice-„
I interrupted her
"mj please don't blame yourself it doesn't change anything it just makes you sad and I don't want you to be sad"
"okay"
"promise me you won't blame yourself"
"I promise peter" she wishes her tears away
"I'm happy for you and harry" he said when I was walking her back to college
"thanks,I miss college" I said
I want to get back there but I know this would just be bad for my mental health I wish I could be Harry's roommate again
"ask you dad if you can come back
" I already did that he said I can't he's to scared I do something and he can't save me"
"we are here we could help you Peter if you want to get back to college then ask him"
"I try"
We were at the door of mj's room in college
"see you around mj"
"perhaps I visit you some time again"
"bye mj" I said and closed the door I started walking back to my home
I hope mj is okay it's not her fault I didn't told her I didn't wanted her to get involved also flash said he kills her then I don't want that she blames herself it's all my fault not hers
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Depressed Peter parker
FanfictionI don't know what to put here I have really to much free time Tw: Self harm Suicidal thoughts Eating disorder Flash Abuse Mention of calories Sucide And more The whole book is basically a trigger warning so don't read if it triggers you
