Depressed Peter parker

Nine

After breakfast I went to my room again and wrote a message to Harry:

Hey just came back from breakfast how is college?

Harry:
It's college it's fine I miss you and hey I didn't felt of my bed this time!

Me:
We should celebrate that I miss you too

Harry:
Haha yeah we should
Your dad told me I could visit you tomorrow

Me:
Really? I can't wait for you

Harry:
Me neither See you tomorrow

I texted him see you tomorrow as well and then I went to the living room were Bucky was 

"hey wanna watch a movie?" He asked sitting on the couch and eating popcorn the tv wasn't on

"yeah sure"

"then sit down and choose one" I sat down next to him and grapped after the remote I put on star wars
"you want popcorn?" Bucky asked

"nah I'm fine" I said and watched the movie

it reminded me of when I was watching it with Harry and eating pizza I liked to remeber these moments.the moments I felt happy. There aren't many of them

When the movie ended I think Bucky just starred at the tv for over a minute and then said "I wish I had that back when I was a teenager" and then just walked away.

I was in my room scrolling through old messages from our group chat again when my dad came in
I looked up from my phone he sat down next to me

"Pete you know at some point  we have to make two conversations"

"which are?" I asked confused

"which are first do you want me to adopt you?"

Did he just said he wanted to adopt me? Best day of my live

"yes I would like that" I said

"Okay"

"what's the other conversation?" I asked

"You selfharm and the fact that you tried to kill yourself" he said calm but worried

Oh

I don't feel like talking about that to be honest

"Uh do we have to?" I asked even though I know the anweser of that

"Pete..."

"Okay" I said and began "you know in high school there was a guy called flash and he bullied me" I made pause should I really tell him everything he did to me? Maybe he things I'm weak then

You're weak
You couldn't save your aunt may

I ignore the thoughts and talk again

"he used to call me penis Parker and lock me in lockers but that's not the worst part" i said quite

"it's okay kid take your time" he said

"Well the worst part was that he would beat me up after school and calling me weak,worthless and I belived him and all that one time he beated me up so bad I was nearly on the verge of dead and he spat on me I told aunt May that it was just a scratch I healed anyway and after this day it just got worse he would literally do it in school too in the breaks at lunch I couldn't escape him  he was everywhere he would throw  me into an empty classroom and beat me up and uh worse sometimes he even used a knive. And he said when i tell anyone he kills all I love he is in my college too  and I was so scared when he saw me but he just called me penis Parker and said "they let you into the M.I.T?"
And then i run away"

Dad looked at me for a minute with shocked eyes and anger in him "I definitely kill him"

"no then you go to prison you said you don't leave again and besides I'm save here I'm not at college and when i go then I make sure he don't see me"

I could see Tony's anger he was ready to kill flash but then he calmed  down a bit 

"I hate that your right I can't kill him but I can make his live miserable" he said and then he turned to face me "if anyone does that or even calls you names tell me okay? Is that the reason because of...that?"

"Yeah I will and yes it is but also because I couldn't save aunt may and you when I thought you were dead but it's not you fault"

"Oh Peter...I'm sorry" he hugged me "i will never let anyone hurt you ever again" he said and kissed my forehead then he left

It was true I was scared of flash even thought I'm Spider-Man and I shouldn't be scared of anything but I am. Maybe I shouldn't have told dad all that 
when flash find out I told him he kills him and my friends I thought.