Depressed Peter parker

Five

I woke up but not from Harry fallling of his bed he wasn't even there when i woke up I woke up from a knock on the door

"I'm coming" I changed and walked up the door I opened the door and there was mj staying in front of me.

"What are you doing here?"

"I was checking on you" she said and came in

Why is she here? It's not like I need someone right now I'm fine absolutely fine

"What?why?" I asked

She came in and looked around the room "Peter I'm not  stupid you know?"

Oh shit she knows she knows how would she know?

The voice in my head again

It's because you stupid

Dumb boy
You useless
No one likes you

Mj hold me out of my thoughts

"Peter..."

"What? What do you know mj?" I asked innocently

She pointed at my wrist "I know that"

"What do you mean?" I think the best is to play stupid at the moment

Your always stupid
You know that don't you? You're stupid
You should die
Because of you mr stark  died
You should be ashamed of yourself

The voice was right it's my fault mr stark died when I wasn't stronger than that he would be still alive I was the reason mr stark died i should die he shouldn't had died. It's all my fault

"Peter?" Mj asked when I was just standing there for seven minutes

"Why are you really here mj?"  I asked her serious

I don't think she cares why would she? It's my fault she nearly died it's my fault aunt may died  all  die because of me

"What do you mean? I'm trying to help!"

"Just go away please i don't want you to die too" I said and sat on my bed

"Peter...it's not your fault they died people just die you can't do anything about it"

"But if I were stronger If I didn't had got turned into dust mr stark..he still would be here he would be still alive" I sobbed

"It was his choice Peter he saved you I don't think he wants you to be sad it's not your fault you hear me?"

Yes it is
Don't listen to her
She's lying
It's your fault hes dead
It's your fault aunt may is dead

"But aunt may-"

She interrupted me immediately

"It's not your fault Peter. Osborn went crazy he killed her it's not your fault she wouldn't wanted you like that being sad"

Wait did she say Osborn?

"Did you said Osborn?"

"Yeah don't you remember?"

And  then it all floated I rememberd it

Harry's dad killed my aunt and then I wanted to kill him but my other version stopped me
I live in a room with the son of a killer

"Mj..." I pointed at the photo of Harry and his father

"What the fuck" Is all she said

"I live with the son of a crazy ass killer but Harry..his son meant he died..."

"You belive him?" Mj asked me scopius

"May-" before I could end the word Harry ran in the room  and fell on the bed

"I go I  text you later" mj said and left the room

"A friend of yours?" Harry's asked me while being completely out of breath 

"Yeah...why the hell are you so exhausted?"

"I ran away from...humans"

I just I felt like i shouldn't ask him about that so I didn't

"Harry?"

"Yeah?"

"Are you sure your father is dead?"

Harry sat down and looked at me weird
"Yeah I'm sure are you sure you-"he pointed at the photo of mr stark "-dad or what is Still dead?"

"Yeah" I said

but I hoped it was all just a dream and when I wake up he be there and tell me all would be okay and then aunt may would say that it was all just a nightmare

Then I remembered

"Oh shit" I wishpered to myself

I have to talk to Ned

"I come back later" I said and left the room to search Ned. But mj words wouldn't go off my head

"You belive him?"

I mean yes he was nice to me why would he lie to me? When he helps me? 
I went down the campus to find ned and left the thoughts for now.