Imperfection

f o u r

you'll change your name or change your mind
and leave this fucked up place behind
but I'll know

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I was walking out of the stadium, a smile still plastered on my face. I couldn't believe it. We just won the champions league, me being the one who scored two goals. It was an indescribable feeling.

Georgia and I were texting since I got out of the cabin. She obviously knew about my future plans and she also knew about my struggles with it, so she tried her best to support me. I could tell she wanted me to move to Bayern, to her, but to be honest it wasn't a serious option. The way she talked about the club, the people and the country even made my heart melt in some way, because I knew how she struggled back in Manchester. She didn't feel at home anymore, similar to me and I was glad she truly was happy now. You could see it all the time, the way she talked, the way she acted, she got more confident and she was in peace with herself, which was what she deserved. But Munich was a city that was completely dead to me. I grew up there and I spent the most awful years of my life there. I'd never go back there if I had a choice, but maybe Germany would be a good choice, just not Munich.

My agent had sent me other clubs that would gladly do a contract with me, Barça, Arsenal, Ol Reign and Wolfsburg being some of them. Arsenal was out immediately, I didn't want to stay in England. Maybe I would come back some day, because after all this was my home but at the moment I just wanted to get out. Ol Reign was out as well, because I just wasn't a big fan of them. I didn't even know why, but it didn't feel like the right place. Barça was an option because I already knew many people there, Keira and Lucy for example. I loved those two with my whole heart. As they were good friends with Georgia, the 'city girls' back then, they were some of the first people I really felt comfortable to talk to when I joined the seniors. Wolfsburg seemed to be a great club as well. To be honest, the thought of being in a team with Jill felt pretty good. The thought of her alone made me feel warm, and it was in Germany; Wolfsburg felt kinda right. I knew Pernille and some other people that played for the club were super happy there and I also already knew people. It wasn't too big and popular as Chelsea for example, but it was a club that I could win trophies with. I didn't know what it was in particular, but something just made me feel like this was the right place for me. Or at least a place I should try out.

Georgia: Do you have any ideas? Like what club you want to go to?

Aurelia: Nah not really

That was a lie, obviously. But I didn't want her to get sad about it already, maybe I'd change my mind after all? Even though that was very unrealistic. I know it would hurt her, even though she'd never admit it.

Georgia: that's alright. You have enough time.

Aurelia: yeah you're right. But I miss you

Georgia: I miss you too kid. What are you doing in your break?

Emma said she'd give us a break now that the champions league is over. In five weeks we would go to a national camp and play three matches to qualify us for the world cup. We'd be free for three weeks until we'd go back to prepare us for the camp, just so we won't get there completely out of training. But Bayern for example had their break already, since they were kicked out of the champions league some weeks ago. It was unlucky, because they actually played incredibly good this season.

Aurelia: Don't know yet either. I want to give P and Mags some alone time, so I'll probably just spend some time with Mackenzie and Sam. Kristie is here as well so that will be fun.

Georgia: Sounds great! I gotta go now tho, text later?

Aurelia: Course, love you

Georgia: Love you too