Imperfection

e i g h t e e n

do you need, do you need someone?
are you scared of what's to come?
will you leave or will you carry on?
is your love from before still strong?
if you leave, will you keep the memory?
that made the night so long, the cut so deep?

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Syd's POV

Three days earlier

Jill had been my best friend for a long time. When she moved away, I moved on. Apparently our bond hasn't been as strong as we had thought. We were still in contact, talked daily, but we both moved on, we found new best friends and lived new lives.

Jill has always been a lovely person. She was humble and caring, but she also made jokes and was hilarious, dancing to her favorite songs whenever and wherever we were. She was a good person. And she had been my best friend.

When she moved to Arsenal, she met Anna, the cute brunette that everyone liked. I'd never met her, but I knew Jill truly loved her and I was happy she'd find her person. But it also affected our friendship. Jill and Anna were always together, something that came with love I guess, the constant need to be in each other's company. It was hard, the times we called got less and when we did Anna was there. Jill never had bad intentions, she's a good person, but sometimes she was so blended by her own feelings that she wasn't seeing how other people felt. I had done everything to keep our friendship alive, I still did, but at some point I started to just accept it. Jill's happiness would always be most important to me and knowing that she was happy with Anna, made me feel okay. I was happy when I saw her and everything would feel like it used to be, but otherwise we barely had contact anymore. She didn't stop caring, just didn't notice how we got distant. But it was okay. Jill's wellbeing would always be my first priority, I didn't mind loosing my best friend for that. At least that's what I always told myself.

Jill and Anna were both very private people and only their closest friends and family knew about their relationship. When Aurie came to Bayern it was clear that she liked the dutch blonde and I felt incredibly sorry for her. Jill was painfully good at touching her friends in ways that would be misunderstood, to give others the feeling they were getting closer, but not noticing herself. But over the weeks, the tension between Aurie and her just got too much. I felt sorry for Anna as well there, she knew how Jill was and that she didn't mean to, but just imagine your girlfriend always having other girls around that think Jill liked them back. It was a complicated situation and to be honest, I didn't know why Jill just never noticed, because she wasn't dumb at all.

Aurie and I then got incredibly close as well, we barely spent time apart. That's how our team worked, we always were together. The brunette was a person I loved to have around, she was easy to talk to, forgiving and always appreciating everything you did for her. Aurie was a sweet person, but also very innocent. It was cute, she was always happy and definitely an optimist, but it also made her naive. In those last weeks she turned into one of my best friends and it hurted to see how she fell for Jill, because I knew how it would break her.

Knowing that she wanted to finally express her feelings to Jill, before the game on Saturday, I called the blonde Dutch. Aurie was head over heels for her and I wouldn't just watch her way too innocent heart break like that.

calling Jillie...

,,Syd!!", Jill greeted excitedly, grinning through the phone.