My Perfect Addiction

Chapter Two

A slam of the door pulled me back from my thoughts.

"Damn Ry what has you so lost in space?"

"Just an email no big deal."

I closed the email quickly, my roommate Holly doesnt know about Joe, nobody at school does. I don't wanna be that girl. 

"What could that email say that has you twisted; I never see you like this."

"Nothing...."

I look over at the clock, 3pm. 

"Listen I gotta get going I have class in half an hour."

I grabbed my bag and ran out. I don't even want to think about Joe or that email. I ran across campus right into the lecture hall. I slid into the desk in the back corner not wanted to even deal with this class. Economics was the one class that just made me want to drop out. I never would I promised my grandmother before she died that I would finish school. The whole two-hour class seemed to drag on and it felt more like a six-hour class. My stomach sat in knots since earlier. I've been so mad at Joe for some long all well missing the friendship we had. I'm surprised he even thought of me at this point. When he left, I heard from him here and there, since the tour and the group became so massive I haven't heard from him, well until now that is. I know I owe him a response just from the years of friendship that we had.

When the class finally ended, I ran back to my dorm room. I walked in Holly wasnt there just a note saying she was staying the night at her boyfriends apartment. I knew what I needed to shake what Im feeling. I tossed my bag onto the floor and walked into the bathroom. I stood in that shower til that water ran cold. I slid out and dried off and slid on a tee shirt it took me a second before I realized it was Joe's. I reached under the desk and grabbed it, Holly doesnt even know it was there, the bottle I stashed of Grey Goose. I convinced Remi to get it for me since I wasnt even legal to get it. My father would kill me if he knew. but I dont do it often only when I need to take the edge off and right now I need to take the edge off, shit I just need to forget at this point.

I put the bottle to my mouth and took a couple sips. It burned as it went down. A few drinks later and everything started to get foggy, and nothing really mattered right then. I know this isn't the way to cope with this, but I know....I knew Joe and he can be persistent. I looked over at the clock it was 1am. I figured I needed to get some sleep; I have to try to pound out a paper tomorrow for that same economics class. I climbed into bed and turned off the lamp. I tossed and turned for I don't even know how long before my mind trailed off to the one time when Joe and I were 16 and went to Childs play.

(Three years prior)

"Come on Ryder everyone at school has seen this movie."

"Why don't you just take Casey?"

"You know we broke up, besides slasher movies always been out thing why would I go with anyone else, come on I'll be your best friend pleasssssssse"

He looked up at me with his blue eyes and I caved. I always seemed to get lost in them, but I could never tell him I thought he was cute it would I don't know make it weird or something, he is my best friend.

"Fine....."

"Awesome pick you up at 8?"

"Fine dad is working overnight on base, so just have Remi let you in."

He pulled out of the school parking lot as I stood there talking to Emma. She constantly insists that Joe and I would be the cutest couple even though I've told her I don't know how many times that he was my best friend and nothing more.