The Fighter

Chapter 38

"You can't go out there right now." Alan holds me back as I fight to get out of his grasp.

"He never loved me." I cry as I begin to give up.

"He does love you." Alan hugs me as I cry.

"No he doesn't. He would have ran after me if he did."

"Actually Jax punched him once you ran out and then he dragged him out."

I cry into Alan's chest as he comforts me.

"I'll go get a blanket and we can sit outside." Alan pulls my head back and wipes my tears.

"Grab a pillow too." I sit down beside the door and wait.

When he comes back we go outside. The air is cooler than it was today but it still feels nice. We walk a few yards away from the door and lay out the blanket.

"He really does love you." Alan says.

"I don't know if I believe it anymore." I yawn.

"When those boys were picking on you he was the first to make down to the mats. He beat the crap out of all of them until Hex pulled a knife out. After that he screamed at them until General Hugh ordered us to take him to you." Alan tells me more."

"In battle he helped me kill the boy I was fighting. Then afterwards he said we had to go find you and he was all frantic. He didn't mean what he said he was just angry and upset." Alan starts to defend him.

"His words hurt." I bite back.

Alan doesn't say anything else for a long time. The only sound is the wind. I look up to a blank sky. The only thing that lights it up is the small, rocky, crescent moon.

"You know there use to be these little balls of light in the sky before world war three. People use to call them stars." Alan points at the sky describing them.

"What happened to them?" I ask trying to imagine what they looked like.

"After the Third World War they blew up one by one. The chemicals and destruction humans put into the universe made them disappear. Each day during the war a lot would fade away. People thought it would take millions of years for them all to disappear but soon they just all at once were gone. Humans then had to put an invisible barrier around the earth for climate control and so none of the stars harmful compounds could get in since they all blew up so quickly." Alan was so smart. I look up at the sky in amazement wanting there to be stars in the sky.

"I wish there were still stars." I say.

"I read that people use to make wishes on them and look at them all the time. Some humans even used it for directions. Others named the stars. They were wonderful. I saw a painting that was from an ancient era that has stars in it. If only I could show it to you, it's so beautiful."

I lay back and stare at the sky. It lays empty for miles.

"Are you ok?" Alan ask. The idea of stars puts me at ease as I erase what happened earlier. I was still upset and angry with Oliver but instead of thinking about that, I think I'd rather think of stars.

"Yea," I nod as he stands up.

"Well, I'm going to bed. Don't stay out here to long." Aka. Gives me a kiss in the forehead and then walks back inside.

"Stars, I wish I could win this war and be happy. Would you come back if everything changed?" I wish to the nonexistent stars and then lay back.