Guilty of Unbidden Pleasure

Chapter 39

Blue's POV

It's freaking 12 in the afternoon and here am I. Being a good friend and running an errand for the one and only Dashel Ajero...

When Gabby left, I decided to leave teaching as well as it only reminds me of him. Levi joined me and we started a business. Si Dash, siya lang ang naiwan. Masarap daw magturo eh..

Kaya naman heto ako ngayon at napag-utusan na kuhain ang pina bookbind niya tsk..

Inabot sakin ang nasa siyam na libro ata. Agad akong nagpasalamat at lumabas sa store.

Ang init tsk..

Mabilis akong naglakad papunta sa parking lot..

I was about to get inside my car when I saw a man holding a baby.. They were chuckling while going to the opposite direction..

I felt my eyes watered..

If my baby was alive, I'd love to hold him or her like that...

I felt a soft tug on my shirt..

A little girl was giving me a pink hanky..

"Hi Mr... Don't cry" she said with her soft and cute voice.

May kakaibang pakiramdam ang humaplos sa puso ko..

Inabot ko ang panyo niya at pinunasan ang mga luha ko..

It's been 5 years pero the pain is still here. It doesn't fade, it only worsens..

She gestured me to come down kaya naman lumuhod ako para magkapantay kami.

I was shocked when she patted my head.

"Are you alone? Don't be sad anymore. I always cry before because I don't have friends too but dada said I should patiently wait because I will meet good friends soon." She innocently said..

That made me smile. What a lovely kid..

"I'm not sad anymore thank you.." I softly replied.

"What's your name sir? Why are you alone? Are you lost like me?" She asked

Natawa naman ako.. I should be the one asking diba

Teka. Lost?

"Where's your parents?" I asked

"I'm with my dada but there's a lot of people in the park earlier so I got lost. I tried to find him but I ended up here.." she calmly said.

This kid is very smart..

"I can help you.. Do you know your dada's phone number?" I asked her

"I don't give personal informations to stranger sir" she politely declined

That made me chuckle..

Hmmm... Should I bring her to the police instead?

"Ihahatid nalang kita sa police station then you can call your dada from there" I offered

Saglit siyang nag-isip..

"Okay it's a deal. What is your name sir?" She asked

How old exactly is this kid? She's too mature for her height.. She is so tiny. I think she's around 4-6 years old. She is as white as a snow and her hair is brown.. She has a little mole under her left eye..

Namamangha akong napatitig sa kanya...

If my baby survived, he or she would probably be this adorable too..

"I'm Bluwell. Nice to meet you.." I smiled then offered my hand...

She reached out for my hand and shook it.

"Nice to meet you Mr. Bluwell. My name is-----"

"Bughaaaaaaw! Jusko kaaaa! Saan saan ka nagsususuot! Magugulpi tayo pareho niyan eh!"

I frozed...

That high pitch annoying voice.

It was too familiar..

And too nostalgic..

I felt my chest tightening..

"Dada! It's you who let go of my hand! Kakainis ka po" the girl suddenly ran to him..

Dahan dahan akong lumingon para makumpirma kung tama ba ang iniisip ko..

His jaw dropped when he saw me..

As if I was a ghost...

"Dada.. Hey.." the little girl nudged him but he was too shocked to even react..

All the pain came back.. and my breathing hitched..

And all I was able to say after all these years is a fucking

"Benj..."